"Yet you have not called on Me, O Jacob; But you have become weary of Me, O Israel.

                                                                                                                                         Isaiah 43:22

It’s not uncommon that on the road to restoration and recovery, we can hit a place that jars us.  It’s a place that drives us to the brink of giving up and quitting, further enticing us toward self pity.  The problem, we think, is not us, but rather, God.  Especially after a recent season of perceived diligence and persistence, we then can find ourselves growing “weary of God.”  This is truly, a truly dangerous place.    

I know, I know, few of us will admit to such a mindset.  That “we,” fallen, frail and fragile creatures, could actually have the audacity to grow weary with almighty God.  But, if we’re honest, we most certainly do.  I have to admit, due to very recent confusing situations and struggles, I came to understand tonight, that I have actually grown weary of God.  Even after all He has done in my marriage?  Yes.  Even after preserving my family the way He has? Yes. I’m just being honest with how things have gone lately. 

Why?  Well, I think it has a whole lot to do with the fact that I am not seeing the results and breakthrough that I would like to see, and that I think is best for the situation. 

Now, if that doesn’t sound like pride and arrogance, I don’t know what does.  But please understand, it’s not my heart’s intent to purposely find fault with God, and my desire is not to be this impatient child who treats God more like a genie in a bottle.  My desire, truthfully, is simply to be right where He wants us to be, right stinkin now!  Hahahah.  ((Yep, that’s funny right there…..and I know you can attest to that also.))

However, it has become painfully clear to me that when we feel like quitting and giving up, due to our own inability to shorten the trial or narrow place we are in, we can ultimately grow weary (or tired) of God. 

The road out, I have found, is pure thankfulness and humility. 

When we can thank God for what we are going through, even though we don’t understand it or see the end of it, we prevent weariness.  When we can trust him to know what’s best and to know what we need despite what we think, we prevent weariness.  When we can surrender all of our worries to Him, and courageously believe He is going to work things out how they need to be, we prevent weariness.

Like me, you too may have grown weary of God.  I hate to admit it, yet, after coming to grips with it, and confessing it, it makes me want to rid myself of it as quickly as I can.  I’m glad I can say that I’ve felt that way, so I can repent, return, and be refreshed by His mercy.  (Acts 3:19)   I invite you today….search your heart and see if there is any weariness of God in you.. ….perhaps like me, you too have grown weary of Him, not doing what you want, when you want it, because you think you know what’s best for YOU!