18 months ago, I discovered my husband's 6 week affair with a woman he hardly knew. 12 months ago I discovered he had been dishonest about the details. The second betrayal was much more painful than the first. The anger was at times overwhelming but the gutwrenching pain was so much worse. To realize after 30 years of marriage that my husband has no integrity is overwhelming.
Yet, I still try to make it work on a daily basis because that is the direction my prayers keep leading me. My anger has somewhat been supplemented by compassion for a man who did something he really regrets. I try to remember that I would have compassion for a friend who falls--- so I have to demonstrate the same compassion for my husband. I do not know if we will make it as this has exposed major differences in our views of life. Our marriage may end but hopefully not in a fit of anger. I will always feel anger and disgust for what happened and that may end our story but if it does, I am confident we will have tried.
Anger
18 months ago, I discovered my husband's 6 week affair with a woman he hardly knew. 12 months ago I discovered he had been dishonest about the details. The second betrayal was much more painful than the first. The anger was at times overwhelming but the gutwrenching pain was so much worse. To realize after 30 years of marriage that my husband has no integrity is overwhelming.
Yet, I still try to make it work on a daily basis because that is the direction my prayers keep leading me. My anger has somewhat been supplemented by compassion for a man who did something he really regrets. I try to remember that I would have compassion for a friend who falls--- so I have to demonstrate the same compassion for my husband. I do not know if we will make it as this has exposed major differences in our views of life. Our marriage may end but hopefully not in a fit of anger. I will always feel anger and disgust for what happened and that may end our story but if it does, I am confident we will have tried.