I will never have peace as long as there is technology

I will forever be wondering what my husband is doing online.  He still has facebook - but I'm not his "friend".  I don't see his posts or what he is doing online.  And it's so much bigger than facebook -- you can find anybody, and chat easily and cover your tracks so very well.

I remember when I first got suspicious, and someone mentioned the name of the person my husband had the affair with - I found her facebook page in the middle of the night and saw my husband there listed as one of her friends.  It got worse - I eventually found that he had friended both her children as well.  He had what I called another "family" on his facebook.  He used to accuse me of chatting onfacebook, searching out ex's...and he was the one doing it the whole time.  And I don't have every detail -- but I do remember when I first was suspicious I asked him to remove her -- being his ex-girlfriend- from his facebook.  He got mad, saying I can't tell him who to be friends with.  Later I discovered he had created another identity.  So even if you ever come to a point you can trust the spouse who betrayed you -- the temptation is always there as far as I know.  If I go to bed early, I'll always be wondering what he's doing.  Because it's so easy to be deceiptful on the internet and to hide and cover all traces of your indescretion.  And he's not giving me any reason to believe he is ever going to stay faithful.  Just being in the house, lacking emotion and lacking remorese doesn't cut it anymore.