Strength

I have been feeling like I am losing my mind, reading this though has made me realise that what I am feeling is normal and I’m not crazy, my partner also refuses to tell me what happened even simple questions as to when it started and ended? I now realise it’s not for my good but his own good.
I don’t know if I have as much strength as u have to leave as for me it has been 2yrs and I am so more dependent on him as my anxiety and depression increase from the lack of communication and healing. I now feel guilty having these thoughts and feelings still as I have been told countless times to move on and get over it as in my partners words the affair is over. How is life for you now, did u go back have you been able to heal better without you partner?