What if I spent YEARS trying to keep the health of my marriage a priority and my spouse refused to do the same? I spent 8 years fighting hard for a healthy marriage, then I broke. And I mean, I begged him to spend time with me, to make our marriage a priority, to keep our connection strong. I even TOLD my spouse I was thinking of cheating after all those years of fighting hard for our marriage...he did nothing. Then I told him I was going to cheat, he did nothing. Then I told him I cheated, he did nothing. It wasn't until I told him I cheated AGAIN and wanted a divorce, that he started to dial in. THOSE are the reasons I no longer feel "in love" with him. And now my therapist tells me that "sometimes it takes a crisis for people to change". Well, I don't WANT to be in this marriage anymore - how do you change what you want? I'm only still here b/c of our son. Am I supposed to make myself want something I don't? In a perfect world, I want my family together, but i don't want to work anymore on this marriage. And I feel guilty about that because now my husband is finally willing to participate. Isn't there a point when it's just too late? I don't want to suffer for more years trying to fix this. I feel tapped out.
What if I spent YEARS trying
What if I spent YEARS trying to keep the health of my marriage a priority and my spouse refused to do the same? I spent 8 years fighting hard for a healthy marriage, then I broke. And I mean, I begged him to spend time with me, to make our marriage a priority, to keep our connection strong. I even TOLD my spouse I was thinking of cheating after all those years of fighting hard for our marriage...he did nothing. Then I told him I was going to cheat, he did nothing. Then I told him I cheated, he did nothing. It wasn't until I told him I cheated AGAIN and wanted a divorce, that he started to dial in. THOSE are the reasons I no longer feel "in love" with him. And now my therapist tells me that "sometimes it takes a crisis for people to change". Well, I don't WANT to be in this marriage anymore - how do you change what you want? I'm only still here b/c of our son. Am I supposed to make myself want something I don't? In a perfect world, I want my family together, but i don't want to work anymore on this marriage. And I feel guilty about that because now my husband is finally willing to participate. Isn't there a point when it's just too late? I don't want to suffer for more years trying to fix this. I feel tapped out.