moving forward when violated

Samuel,

This does help. Let me say that the boundaries have been set and hedges are in place. My H has kept the lines clear and defined. We have done everything short of moving to create barriers and yet the ap continues with her attempts to re-engage my H. He is over it and her. He sees her attempts as tactics to destroy his family and that is unacceptable to him.

And truly, it is how I am responding to these current attempts by the ap. I feel powerless and victimized in these situations. A big part of me wants to hide in shame. And another part of me wants to protect and defend my H and my children. I don't dare engage the ap. I choose the high road, but I drown in the negative response - the powerlessness, the shame. How do I flip the switch so to speak and respond more positively? How do I convince myself that I am the honorable one without beating my chest and claiming that I am better than she is?

I am (still) in the process of grieving and I do feel that I am finding and offering forgiveness to my spouse....but I struggle to offer this to the AP especially given her recent actions.