My social shame was compounded when my unfaithful husband began shaming me for being angry at the betrayel and abuse that has been perpetrated against me. I was shamed because I chose to feel my pain, Rather than to stuff it or medicate it, go back into my childhood wounds and process those so I could heal. It’s been two years since d day and I’m slowly healing not because my husband wants to heal or even come alongside to help me heal. I’m having to choose to heal in community with other women. Sadly, my husband’s shame keeps him in rebellion and darkness. I pray some day he will choose healing for himself. Now that I’ve tasted what real living is like( authentic relationships, feeling my feelings, having safe healthy boundaries, using my voice, having my sanity, I cannot go “back to Egypt” I choose to walk through on dry ground no matter if he’s on board or not. I’m learning to love me and fill me up so I may walk with others. I never knew how depleted I was until I began learning about self care and taking really good care of me. Thank you Affair recovery for encouraging me and propelling me forward even though my spouse chooses to stay in Egypt. His blame game and other tactics no longer serve me in my healthier , boundaried self. I love that God put your videos in my life for such a time as this!!!
Shame
My social shame was compounded when my unfaithful husband began shaming me for being angry at the betrayel and abuse that has been perpetrated against me. I was shamed because I chose to feel my pain, Rather than to stuff it or medicate it, go back into my childhood wounds and process those so I could heal. It’s been two years since d day and I’m slowly healing not because my husband wants to heal or even come alongside to help me heal. I’m having to choose to heal in community with other women. Sadly, my husband’s shame keeps him in rebellion and darkness. I pray some day he will choose healing for himself. Now that I’ve tasted what real living is like( authentic relationships, feeling my feelings, having safe healthy boundaries, using my voice, having my sanity, I cannot go “back to Egypt” I choose to walk through on dry ground no matter if he’s on board or not. I’m learning to love me and fill me up so I may walk with others. I never knew how depleted I was until I began learning about self care and taking really good care of me. Thank you Affair recovery for encouraging me and propelling me forward even though my spouse chooses to stay in Egypt. His blame game and other tactics no longer serve me in my healthier , boundaried self. I love that God put your videos in my life for such a time as this!!!