So sorry

Happyness, I am so sorry that you saw the videos of your husband acting out. I can imagine it would be hard for those images to leave you. I do believe that having a game plan when those images pop into your head is very helpful. I am glad you have been praying to God to take them away. Now, when the thoughts come in my head, I shut them off but, yeah, for me seeing him as a little boy took away the disturbing, sick part of it and made me see it in a different light. It gets better over time.