Please accept my sincere apologies for not making time sooner to address this question about my motivation for going back to the marriage with Michael. You are correct that it was not Michael's specialness that brought me back to the marriage. I had allowed disappointments, sadness, resentments, and anger to build such a thick wall around my heart toward Michael, that only as I grew in my personal relationship with God after moving back home, would I be able to see Michael as the truly amazing and special man that he is to me and to this world. When I moved home 2 years ago, I trusted that God would change my heart toward Michael, and He has been ever faithful. I love Michael in a way I never even knew to love him. I cherish Michael as my husband, my best friend, my training partner for heaven. We grow daily toward oneness in our emotional and spiritual intimacy, and that has redeemed our physical intimacy.
Michael and I are both broken human beings in desperate need of a Savior, a Savior that loves us so much he would give his very life for ours. He is Jesus! Because we are human, we will disappoint each other - even if it is only unintentionally. As a result, we realize that we cannot look to the other for validation, acceptance, and self-worth. We receive all of that from God and God is sufficient. Our identities are found in Christ. I pray that you have continued in a healing process that guides you in this truth. You are worthy! You are loved unconditionally by our Heavenly Father! I encourage you to rest in the hope found in Christ our Savior. God has gone before us in all things. He is with you and for you.
Melinda's Response
Please accept my sincere apologies for not making time sooner to address this question about my motivation for going back to the marriage with Michael. You are correct that it was not Michael's specialness that brought me back to the marriage. I had allowed disappointments, sadness, resentments, and anger to build such a thick wall around my heart toward Michael, that only as I grew in my personal relationship with God after moving back home, would I be able to see Michael as the truly amazing and special man that he is to me and to this world. When I moved home 2 years ago, I trusted that God would change my heart toward Michael, and He has been ever faithful. I love Michael in a way I never even knew to love him. I cherish Michael as my husband, my best friend, my training partner for heaven. We grow daily toward oneness in our emotional and spiritual intimacy, and that has redeemed our physical intimacy.
Michael and I are both broken human beings in desperate need of a Savior, a Savior that loves us so much he would give his very life for ours. He is Jesus! Because we are human, we will disappoint each other - even if it is only unintentionally. As a result, we realize that we cannot look to the other for validation, acceptance, and self-worth. We receive all of that from God and God is sufficient. Our identities are found in Christ. I pray that you have continued in a healing process that guides you in this truth. You are worthy! You are loved unconditionally by our Heavenly Father! I encourage you to rest in the hope found in Christ our Savior. God has gone before us in all things. He is with you and for you.