Hi Jen. I waited to comment until I read the third instalment. You have amazing compassion and stamina to be seeing this thru like you are. Your writing should be helpful to those people still in a relationship, where there is some chance of it going forward. I can't help but think that every time your husband got together with the AP, and all of the decisions he made leading up to those times, and all the discussions you had with him about your suspicions, all of that reflected conscious decisions he made to betray you. None of it was accidental -- it was all intentional. You have a level of dignity and acceptance that is admirable to still believe this is a person you can be intimate with again. Do you ever find yourself asking, "nevermind the Past, what do I, Jen deserve right now? What level of Trust that I, Jen put out there can ever be returned to me by this person?"
the third Jen posting
Hi Jen. I waited to comment until I read the third instalment. You have amazing compassion and stamina to be seeing this thru like you are. Your writing should be helpful to those people still in a relationship, where there is some chance of it going forward. I can't help but think that every time your husband got together with the AP, and all of the decisions he made leading up to those times, and all the discussions you had with him about your suspicions, all of that reflected conscious decisions he made to betray you. None of it was accidental -- it was all intentional. You have a level of dignity and acceptance that is admirable to still believe this is a person you can be intimate with again. Do you ever find yourself asking, "nevermind the Past, what do I, Jen deserve right now? What level of Trust that I, Jen put out there can ever be returned to me by this person?"