10 years after divorce

After seemingly putting my life together after my ex wife cheated . I met someone and after a few years we got engaged. That fell apart 3 years ago. Single again and after nearly 10 years after my divorce I've thought about my ex wife for whatever crazy reason over the past few months. I've come to a bizarre conclusion I still love her and had thoughts of us getting back together. Though I realize I wouldn't be able to because of what she did. We don't talk at all and have for years because of her hostile nature towards me (she's the one who's angry ,but the one who cheated) I guess I'm at a cross roads in my life where I don't know which path to take. Struggling through many aspects of my life right now.