I am 18 months post revelation. The second I close my laptop for the day at work, the pain instantly descends. All thoughts lead back to the affair. Somehow I can get from brushing my teeth, looking in the mirror, seeing how old I look compared to his mistress, and there I am again. It happens all the time everyday. it is like a weight pressing down on me all the time, even when I am not consciously thinking about it, I am feeling it in my body. I totally hear where you are at.
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I am 18 months post revelation. The second I close my laptop for the day at work, the pain instantly descends. All thoughts lead back to the affair. Somehow I can get from brushing my teeth, looking in the mirror, seeing how old I look compared to his mistress, and there I am again. It happens all the time everyday. it is like a weight pressing down on me all the time, even when I am not consciously thinking about it, I am feeling it in my body. I totally hear where you are at.