I had a total of four affair partners. 3 were sexual and one was physical and emotional. I always felt bad and I never stopped loving and wanting my wife. She was trying to work with me and I withdrew. She has now filed for divorce. I hate so much that I betrayed her and that I wasn't there for her in the aftermath. I didn't know how to handle it. I was/am riddled with guilt and self loathing for hurting her the way I have. I would give anything to change what I have done. To make amends. It seems I may have came to the knowledge and understanding too late.
We both still love each other. and I want to be with her and deep down I know she wants to be with me. She has tried so hard to get me to open up and come clean. I finally came clean but then I withdrew again from all my negative feelings. I wish I would have had this information a long time ago. it may have saved my marriage.
PLEASE ANYONE READING THIS: PRAY FOR MY WIFE THAT GOD MAY REMOVE THE PAIN AND SECOND PRAY FOR OUR MARRIAGE.
The divorce isn't final and God can make miracles happen.
I am the cheater too!
I had a total of four affair partners. 3 were sexual and one was physical and emotional. I always felt bad and I never stopped loving and wanting my wife. She was trying to work with me and I withdrew. She has now filed for divorce. I hate so much that I betrayed her and that I wasn't there for her in the aftermath. I didn't know how to handle it. I was/am riddled with guilt and self loathing for hurting her the way I have. I would give anything to change what I have done. To make amends. It seems I may have came to the knowledge and understanding too late.
We both still love each other. and I want to be with her and deep down I know she wants to be with me. She has tried so hard to get me to open up and come clean. I finally came clean but then I withdrew again from all my negative feelings. I wish I would have had this information a long time ago. it may have saved my marriage.
PLEASE ANYONE READING THIS: PRAY FOR MY WIFE THAT GOD MAY REMOVE THE PAIN AND SECOND PRAY FOR OUR MARRIAGE.
The divorce isn't final and God can make miracles happen.