Your sadness and weeping is not a sign of a lack of forgiveness. It is a part of the very important process of grieving. You clearly demonstrate to him an attitude of forgiveness but that does not meant that the hurt has left or the great sadness of missing the life you lost and knew before. The loss is tremendous and it sounds like you are also doing a great job of dealing with it. Congratulations!
Forgiveness
Your sadness and weeping is not a sign of a lack of forgiveness. It is a part of the very important process of grieving. You clearly demonstrate to him an attitude of forgiveness but that does not meant that the hurt has left or the great sadness of missing the life you lost and knew before. The loss is tremendous and it sounds like you are also doing a great job of dealing with it. Congratulations!