I forgave him. I really thought we could survive this. But, that's when I was under the spell of believing he still loved me and didn't want to lose me. He doesn't care about my feelings other than to scoff at me for having them. He continues to see her and lies about it. We've been married 42 years. I thought we were "special". He doesn't love me but doesn't want a divorce because it is impractical. His words. I am afraid to step off the mountain of grief and freefall into another life. I want to be happy again. I want to know who I am again. This man I trusted for 42 years murdered my spirit.
No Hope For Us
I forgave him. I really thought we could survive this. But, that's when I was under the spell of believing he still loved me and didn't want to lose me. He doesn't care about my feelings other than to scoff at me for having them. He continues to see her and lies about it. We've been married 42 years. I thought we were "special". He doesn't love me but doesn't want a divorce because it is impractical. His words. I am afraid to step off the mountain of grief and freefall into another life. I want to be happy again. I want to know who I am again. This man I trusted for 42 years murdered my spirit.