Lost and alone

I found out about my husbands online affairs one week before our 20th anniversary. We went to counseling a few times and I was trying to put our marriage back together. A year and a half later I discovered emails on our computer that told me it was much more than online affairs. He had been using craigslist to meet women and prostitutes. The pain of betrayal is destroying me. I feel as though no one can understand this pain and anxiety I feel. I'm lost and feel alone. Thank you for your blogs and articles. They have become part of my daily routine and give me some relief from the anxiety. I need to put myself back together before I destroy myself and my children.