It has been a year and 1/2 since finding out of the night mare, that my husband of 30 years, had been and still was involved with affairs for the past 6/7 years. We had a few short seperations and of course he bounced back and forth from me to his then current partner. It has taken a lot of hours of reading, praying, researching, counseling to get me where I am today. My anxieties are easier to handle, my weight is coming back. I held on and fought for my marriage and we are still together, he is currently working with a phychiatrist and there are times that he says he is not sure whether he wants to be married or single. He works out of town during the week and you can not even begin to imagine how one slight memory from the past can turn me over. I am constantly trying to not over think things because my mind can go crazy. I would love for the both of us to work on a program together to help heal from his affairs and most importantly to put an end to his sexual addictive personality (which he does not think he has). He will not go to counseling with me and when I suggest a program such as this one he shuts me off and won't talk about it. I tend to get the silent treatment whenever I bring up anything to help us heal...I have learned to bite my tongue and do not ask and rehash all of the questions that I have wondering around in my head, because this just has not helped. I really want to work on this program and hope that I am choosen as my husband shuts down any $ I want to spend on helping us.
It has been a year and 1/2