Harboring hope

One year past D Day or our Antiversary as I call it. I still feel pain and betrayal. I get confused because my husband and I still love each other and I have difficulty moving forward with recovery. Since I discovered his affair I’ve had mental breakdown, major depression, previous suicidal thoughts, PTSD and work with a therapist. I want my husband, I want my family, I want the old me, I want my marriage and more than anything I want happiness again.