I'm 8 months post discovery now. I've prayed for my husband's AP, who was 10 years younger, but I've only been able to muster a weak prayer that she finds God, because I know this is the only way she will ever stop her pattern of sleeping with married men. I can only see her as the face of Satan right now. I let her steal my joy and my healing, and I hate it, but I also don't want to let it go. I hope some day i can forgive her, but right now, I feel like I have to keep hating her or I will hate my husband instead.
I can't do it yet.
I'm 8 months post discovery now. I've prayed for my husband's AP, who was 10 years younger, but I've only been able to muster a weak prayer that she finds God, because I know this is the only way she will ever stop her pattern of sleeping with married men. I can only see her as the face of Satan right now. I let her steal my joy and my healing, and I hate it, but I also don't want to let it go. I hope some day i can forgive her, but right now, I feel like I have to keep hating her or I will hate my husband instead.