Feeling Ignored

This was just what I needed. I'm the unfaithful spouse. I've had 2 2 week long online affairs, for which my husband forgave me and then 4 months later, he caught me in the beginning of another - this is now 3 weeks after the latest discovery. We've been married 20 years and I'm doing all I can to show him that I'm committed, honest, transparent and sincere. I've taken full responsibility and have deleted all social media. Currently he is ambivalent, which is a terrible state to be in. I've written him a HURT letter yesterday and update him throughout the day of what I'm busy with, although he says he doesn't care - I do it anyway. Every morning when he gets to work, I sent him a text, saying that I love him very much. He doesn't react and I understand that, but I was sitting outside now, feeling a bit hopeless because of his lack of response to my efforts, when I came across this video and it gave me renewed strength to go on and show him I love him, without wanting anything back. This site saved me and will propably help save my marriage. Thanks so much.