Addiction

I too have this problem. I'm a year and a half from Dday and have discovered about the indidelity and the substance abuse all at the same time. Though he has been to rehab and has never failed a drug test since, I panic. I panic every day. I'm not the person I once was and we r not the couple we once were. I don't know how to forgive. I am so angry and confused that the man I loved and the man that says he loves me would even need to take drugs and need to b with another woman. I'm trying to find a way to deal and for our family to find a way to heal.