Anniversary struggle

Great post Jen. I’m a male 9 years out from final discovery after a few years of trickle truth. The affair spanned our 25th anniversary. It is still a day of mixed emotions for me, probably because my wife has always been more about rug sweeping than real remorse and reconciliation.

You described so well the dichotomy of picking out the anniversary card. It feels so phony. I’m a very honest person and the words in most of them I just can’t genuinely convey. Thankfully I have been able to find one that says I love you and value our relationship and it’s history without using the words loyal, faithful, trustworthy, etc.. Because she clearly wasn’t, and I’m still not sure she is. The cheating stopped but the distance, disconnect, contempt and selfishness stubbornly remain rear their ugly heads too often.