I am living the same life. I am 18 months in and the pain is no different then D day. My husband spent the last 18 months refusing to talk about the affair. When I forced the conversation, he lied. I became obsessed trying to figure out my life. I would find new information and he would get angry with me. Because of all this I now suffer from PTSD. Triggers invade my thoughts constantly. I wake up thinking about it and end the day thinking about it. I just want to be my happy self again.
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I am living the same life. I am 18 months in and the pain is no different then D day. My husband spent the last 18 months refusing to talk about the affair. When I forced the conversation, he lied. I became obsessed trying to figure out my life. I would find new information and he would get angry with me. Because of all this I now suffer from PTSD. Triggers invade my thoughts constantly. I wake up thinking about it and end the day thinking about it. I just want to be my happy self again.