My husband and I have only been married 11 years in October but this is my 2nd marriage. I was in a very toxic and unhealthy marriage for 14 years before I found a way back myself & finally walked away. I was so ready for a good marriage with a good man & believed i had found that. For the last 4 years of this marriage I have been shocked & devastated when I discovered he had been cheating from day one, broken & confused from all of the manipulation,gaslighting, & emotional abuse i had been experiencing from someone i trusted, and finally angry & lost because i have wasted years of my life when I was in my prime but I'm almost 50 now and am finding it hard to accept the idea of starting over, at my age, with no clear idea or path for myself, since I had been counting on a future that we had planned together that had been nothing but a lie to begin with...it's just so hard to believe and I'm just so angry that somebody stole my time and my dreams as well as my love and trust
I share the same feelings as you
My husband and I have only been married 11 years in October but this is my 2nd marriage. I was in a very toxic and unhealthy marriage for 14 years before I found a way back myself & finally walked away. I was so ready for a good marriage with a good man & believed i had found that. For the last 4 years of this marriage I have been shocked & devastated when I discovered he had been cheating from day one, broken & confused from all of the manipulation,gaslighting, & emotional abuse i had been experiencing from someone i trusted, and finally angry & lost because i have wasted years of my life when I was in my prime but I'm almost 50 now and am finding it hard to accept the idea of starting over, at my age, with no clear idea or path for myself, since I had been counting on a future that we had planned together that had been nothing but a lie to begin with...it's just so hard to believe and I'm just so angry that somebody stole my time and my dreams as well as my love and trust