We are about 9 months past the initial discovery. I just experienced d-day #5 where I found out about not only additional sexual partners but also that the inappropriate sexual relationships have been going on the majority of the time my husband and I have known each other. I’m finding it especially difficult to get past this fact. We are nearing the end of our EMSO course work and a lot of what we experienced together during the 13-weeks feels very tainted considering the lies have carried through to now. I feel like I’ve made huge strides in my personal healing, but I’m left wanting in regards to the healing and recovery of our marriage. I have set a boundary for myself and have communicated to my husband that I will not tolerate any more lies from this point on. We started seeing a counselor together about a month ago who specializes in affair recovery. My husband has apologized, has told me that he takes full responsibility, has asked for forgiveness and assures me I now know everything. I am overwhelmed and I’m reeling because I don’t know what to do from here. I’m thinking about going back to week 1 in our EMSO workbooks and starting over, I think I want to continue forward with Married for Life, I definitely want to continue our sessions with the counselor. What can I do at this point? How do I take a step forward and where do I go from here?