We are 3 months from second D-Day, which happened midway through EMSO. First it was 2 strip clubs visits and then he revealed it was sex addiction with prostitution for 18 months, masturbation and pornography for duration of our marriage. He revealed all of this in response to my asking the question which I believe was God’s work as my spirit had been growing increasingly unsettled leading up to the question and my Husband later told me he prayed for help to come clean as he kept finding excuses. He has since passed a polygraph. Now I am paranoid that he has been inappropriate with (lusted after or groomed) family and friends. He denies but I’m convinced and I am praying for God to reveal the truth. I have been gaslighted for so long (10 years) - how do I know I’m not paranoid?