I wrote my story today, and found it to be incredibly painful, although I guess cathartic. It brought up so many feelings, from pain and sadness to rage and anger. I'm not sure how best to deal with this. Especially since I don't believe I have the full story from my husband, or if I ever will. For now, I am just trying to remain safe, keeping all of the emotions to myself, and just letting him know I'm triggered. But seeing him happy is making me bitter, and more angry.