Hi Rick, It has been 2 years since our final Dday. Background- my husband is a sex addict and for 28 years of our 38 year marriage he did porn, masturbation, and was with approximately 80 prostitutes. He has finally become a changed man- very remorseful and loving, but dealing with shame, though, sometimes. We have done EMS weekend twice and counseling. My question is, I am struggling still with the overwhelming pain and devastation that this has caused. I feel like it is getting worse, as I am struggling with feelings of revulsion and disgust towards my husband, and the horrible images and triggers. I have had EMDR, but not sure if has been helpful. I desperately want to love my husband and stay married, but I am sick to my stomach over his past history. What do you suggest I do now to cope and heal? Thank you so much.