I cheated on my husband for the past 3 years. I had emotional and physical affairs with up to 20 people. I did degrading sexual acts and was video tapped by one of the affair partners. I lied all the time and centered my affairs over everything else. I felt like I was spinning out of control. It has been 5 months since D-Day. Sometimes I think what I did is unforgivable by me and my husband. He is a good man and deserves much better than this.