I feel as if I have forgiven my husband but am finding I don’t feel ‘free’ around him any more. I don’t want him to see me naked anymore because I feel I will be judged and compared to his AP. I can’t really laugh with him often because I feel like he has spent a year laughing with her at my expense. I don’t fully express myself because when I do he becomes defensive, which makes me angry and I don’t want to be angry anymore, so I stay quiet. I feel the person I was most open and vulnerable with, I can barely open up to at all. What are some tangible ways to overcome this? He is doing the best he can (I suppose) with recovery. Is it what I want? Not really, but I’m learning to manage my expectations. How can I feel not just safe, but free again? Thank you.