My wayward husband has a sexual addiction. His betrayal included paying for sex with "many, many women". We were each other's one and only and both saved ourselves until we were married. He is still my one and only! Since he cheated on me I have no interest in having sex other than to keep him from relapsing. Sex is also a huge trigger for me. I'm not sure we will ever "make love" again. I believe having sex and making love are two very different things in a marriage. How can it ever be special again?