At first I counted by days since that devastating night, then weeks, then months. Two days ago I danced and praised about the 8 month mark coming and going without noticing during that week. Previously, that day of the month has been full of using most if not all the strategies I’d learned in EMS Online and Harboring Hope. Yesterday, a new raw spot came to light. Instantly I reacted while my heartbeat raced. So much for control, working through the emotion. My husband wanted to hold me and waited patiently while I took control of my breathing before stepping towards him. We’ve come so far, doing better than I ever expected possible. Shelter-in-Place for COVID-19 is great for me since I don’t want those kind of moments to happen in public. I’m not required to go out and about right now. Expectations from others and for myself will change. What’s the process for that?