I told my spouse after his 2nd affair that if there ever was a third time, he would be out. Well, we are a year out from the 3rd affair. He failed to tell me the truth and I've had to play detective so often. We're now at the point where he is remorseful and trying. However, I just don't think there's any love left in me for him. I'm searching for ways to love him again but it's just not there. I don't know where to find love. I don't hate him. I don't feel much at all anymore. I had been planning on our retirement, paying off things, and working hard so that we could have a great life together. Now I'm just living with a man I don't really know. I don't know if I want to even try anymore. He's in Hope 4 Healing and I'm taking Harboring Hope. I know I have to wait until these sessions are over. Will I ever feel love for him again? Do I even want to? What now?