Q&A Which Feelings Should I Listen to?

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We just finished EMSO. 2 years from d-day followed by full denial until 3 months ago. "Full disclosure" came after calling his bluff with ultimatum to separate and consisted of admitting 2+ year EA with female coworker, multiple lies/cover-ups and inappropriate daily grooming/pimping behaviors with any female who favorably responds to him at work or otherwise - admitting the ego boost and validation this gives him. I believe we are both committed to continuing recovery and reconciliation together. I am however, having a difficult time managing intrusive thoughts of two unresolved incidents: First, He disclosed a female coworker jokingly referenced oral sex using company I.M. but denies any prior flirting or verbal discussion of such and states he did not reply or respond (only deleted) and Second (most intrusive), I don't believe that GPS discrepancy radius can be off by almost 2 miles, contrasting a busy commercial area (his stated location) on the south side of a major highway with a residential area, 1.5-2 miles away on the North end of the highway. He is adamant there is nothing more to disclose. I'm struggling with letting my guard down (mistrusting behaviors) because of my fears that there is more to disclose/discover. How do I know what feelings to listen to? What do I do with these intrusive thoughts? Is it safe to set such suspicions aside and continue with reconciliation? I'm struggling because I wonder if it is God that nudging me that I still need answers.

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