Again Samuel, right on the mark. The exhausting, looping, never ending mental game of trying to make things right, and have a path to wholeness, to fix it all, overwhelms. So much so, that you get to a point of just wanting to quit.To lay down and just give up.
It's encouraging to hear that I don't have to have it all figured out. That's its okay to just be present today. To seek out the best care possible. It's also scary if I'm honest. Trying to figure it all out, can mask and medication the fear of losing all whom I care about. It's really a form of panic. But when I take a minute to breathe, I realize that is not productive,and it leaves me at a dead end street.