It does shake the brain when I hear as the betrayed that I need to accept where I'm at, but even for me who was betrayed over 30 years of a 40 year marriage, this is the truth. There are moments when I can't wrap my mind around how sick and deceitful he was especially while seeing fotos over the years and realizing he had an AP the entire time, knowing he shared my life with her, that she helped him make decisions that affected me and my children, that her advise to him caused me a great deal of pain. But, even then I had to look at the truth and reality and begin to let go of everything I held dear, everything I thought about him, of our marriage and begin to look at the truth, looking forward to a new life, with or without him. It's been over two years, separated and he still doesn't quite get it because he says he loved me in his own way. I, on the other hand am thriving beginning to look at my life as something new and exciting. There are still moments of extreme pain at all the losses I sustained but there is nothing I can do to change the past.....he made the choices he made and now he and I live with the aftermath. I fight to not let what he did to me define me or embitter me....working on forgiveness and extending grace so I can be free, one small step at a time. Thank you Samuel for all the time and effort you put into your vlogs. They have been so helpful and enlightening!