We're 4 weeks or so into recovery after D-Day. For the first week my wife seemed very happy that I chose to forgive her affair and subsequent 6 months of living like a single woman. She admits that my choice to forgive made her think that we should try make this work. But right now, she seems to doubt herself a lot, very ambivalent about what she wants. Seems to be following her feelings, and she's admitted that she knows she shouldn't. She likes a lot of depressing social media poems about finding yourself or not needing someone etc. She has been hesitant to start anything towards recovery because she isn't "ready yet". The ambivalence creates a lot of anxiety for me and uncertainty. I can't see that she's actively trying to heal or seeking legitimate help. One comment made to me was "I don't know if I'll be able to get past being friends with you" which hurts.