Q&A How Do I Manage the Losses of Everything My Husband Gave Away?

There will no longer be anything that is unique between only us. My husband gave away our exclusivity, trust, honor and respect, and entrusted his affair partner with our intimacy and more knowledge about our marriage than I had. When we socialized together and she looked me in the eye, she knew I was living a lie and what kind of man he was, when I did not. She knew he did not value our marriage and was willfully deceiving me when I did not. He says he never stopped loving me, but he would never be so cruel to anyone else. I can't wrap my head around him taking pleasure in things that were knowingly and willfully sabotaging our marriage, destroying me as a person, and potentially tearing apart our family. He gave away everything that makes marriage special so I'm struggling to understand what is left. Even if I fully forgive him we will never have any of those things. If he does not value monogamy then what is the point? He says he values that now, but he demonstrated by his actions it was not important when he invited someone else into our marriage. I just don't see how you can turn that on and off. Now we are no longer monogamous by his choice. It can't be undone.