Ten months after D-Day and multiple disclosures, my husband professes that he wants to continue being married and is doing some recovery work, but still hasn't given a written disclosure. This week, I found a stash of thousands of dollars hidden in my husband's garage. Within the marriage, we have the agreement that any expenditure larger than $1,000 would be discussed and agreed upon. I had no knowledge of this money, and we're on a tight budget. Despite what he claims about wanting to stay married, It feels to me that he is saving money to move out, or cushion his departure to another life. I feel he doesn't trust me to tell me the truth and I know I was committed to healing, but I feel differently now. My mind is worried about what this really means and how to get to the truth I need to know to make my own choices. I am committed to honesty and transparency, so I know I need to confront him, and take the next best step, but I'm sick to my stomach about how to do this with focus on the best possible outcome for all.