I feel that it’s more stressful than anything. Before I got married, I was happy, healthy and whole. I have been together with my spouse for 16 years, married for more than 10, but it has changed me- and not for the better. I always had a sweet and patient spirit but all of the hurt, pain, rejection and disrespect I have endured over the years has made me bitter and angry. My nervous system has been greatly impacted- I’ve been diagnosed with hypertension in this marriage, anxiety, dizziness and I always wonder had I not married my spouse if I’d be dealing with these ailments. I know stuffing all my feelings inside over the years because I avoid conflict has played a role in this as well. But even after EMS Online I’m not confident that old ways and personalities will not creep back in. I am tired of arguing back and forth over little things which is part of the reason that we are here today. We are both the betrayed and unfaithful. I just don’t think I have enough energy or fight left in me for marriage. It has taken a toll on me physically, mentally and emotionally long enough!