Q&A How Do I Explain That My Childhood Trauma Triggered My Actions and Doesn’t Remove My Accountability Even If I Did Disassociate?

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My husband is really struggling with my disassociation during my 6 week affair in March-April 2022 that started just after my daughters 3 birthday. I have C-PTSD from childhood trauma that started when I was 3 and my affair partner was someone who reflected familiarities from abusers in my childhood. We have done EMS Weekend, Beyond EMS, currently starting Married for Life, and are both in Harboring Hope and Hope for Healing. I am working with a therapist who specializes in my kind of trauma and affair recovery. My husband understandably thinks my disassociation, not amnesia, and childhood trauma is an excuse or justification for my actions. I have done a detailed timeline for him as a way to sift through the multiple stories I originally told. He has full disclosure from me and still struggles with my why as it connects to my childhood trauma. How do I explain to him I am still 100% accountable for my actions even though my childhood trauma triggered my actions and it doesn’t remove my accountability even if I did disassociate?



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