Rick Reynolds, LCSW
by Rick Reynolds, LCSW
Founder & President, Affair Recovery

Ending an Affair: Letting Go and Moving On

ending an affair letting to and moving on


Series:  Ending an Affair

  1. Make the Decision
  2. Close the Door
  3. Lock the Door – Part 1
  4. Lock the Door – Part 2
  5. Throw Away the Key
  6. Letting Go and Moving On

My internship my senior year in college was with a thoracic surgeon working with terminally ill patients. At 22, walking patients and family through the stages of grief was more than I had bargained for. The year was 1975 and Elisabeth Kubler-Ross’ book titled “On Death and Dying” had only been out six years. Sad to say my maturity level in those days kept me trapped in grief’s early stages, denial and anger. When I wasn’t pretending everything was going to be okay I was pumping clinched fist at the heavens for allowing such pain. I had yet to discover the stages of bargaining, depression and acceptance. To this day I’m still learning about grief work. But one thing I’ve learned for sure, and it may shock some of you: the stages of letting go apply just as much to ending an affair as they do to death. Both require moving to a place of surrender to what is, and allowing for a transition to something new. Failure to do so leaves you forever trapped in the land of the “no more and not yet”.

Letting go and moving on are two separate processes, but we’ll cover both in this article.

Letting Go:

Letting go is more than a decision; it is a behavior. It’s about surrendering the dreams of what you imagined and embracing the fullness of your current reality. To begin, the denial about your affair partner has to be relinquished. Openness to a larger collective pool of knowledge is necessary for acquiring new perspective. Talking about the relationship with others who are safe and who can help you gain perspective is critical for letting go. As long as you live in denial and ignore their faults you’ll maintain the illusion of an unrealistic future. I’ve spent months talking with people about their affair partners as they’ve moved beyond denial. Failure to move beyond denial makes acceptance next to impossible. If you have not come to the point where you see as many negatives with your affair partner as you do with your mate, then you’re most likely still in denial.

Anger also impedes letting go. Frequently anger is used to avoid the pain. Rather than facing the emotion we try to transmit it to others. It’s just not fair and besides it’s easier to be mad and sad. The solution to anger is identifying the emotions behind the anger and having courage to walk through that pain. Suppressing the feelings through rage will only delay the process. Find others who have gone through something similar and who can understand and talk about what you’re feeling. Extend compassion toward yourself. Beating yourself up for what’s happened won’t move you forward. Instead be compassionate toward, and work to forgive yourself as well as others to eliminate the bitterness.

After anger has subsided our mind begins to bargain, trying to avoid the inevitable end of the affair. Bargaining is a vain expression of hope that somehow the relationship may yet be salvaged. To move through the bargaining stage, remind yourself the decision is irreversible. This is what you’ve decided is best and that half measures will only prolong the pain for everyone involved. Remind yourself this to shall pass and over time you will heal. Stay focused on your own personal growth to begin seeing ways the loss will be transformed to something more meaningful and beneficial. At times it’s facing the inevitable loss of the affair that triggers depression, but that may be a necessary stage to letting go and finding new life.

Depression is the next grief stage. Some define depression as the inability to create a vision of the future. Letting go requires accepting responsibility for your future and accepting that your future will only be as good as you choose to make it. With loss sadness is natural, but sadness isn’t the same as depression and the inability to see a new future. While you may not yet see the new possibilities, it begins by believing it’s possible. You don’t know what it will look like, but allow yourself to dream new dreams and even better possibilities that don’t include your affair partner.

The final stage of grief is acceptance. It’s getting to the place where you see that it is what it is. It’s over and it’s time to create an even better life. Acceptance is the final stage of letting go. I no longer even long for what was, rather I begin seeing how the loss is being transformed and creating new possibilities. Acceptance allows you to freely face your future without an anchor of regret holding you in the past.

It’s usually not until this stage that we’re ready to write our letter of termination. This is a letter that’s not meant to be sent, but something that serves as a reminder and puts into words our final surrender of the relationship. An amazing freedom comes with endings which then open paths to new beginnings. Don’t be afraid to let go and follow a new road.

Moving on:

Moving on is about more than letting go. It’s a “do over,” a second chance to do something better the second time around. It’s the opportunity to break out of the mold of other’s expectations, take lessons life has taught, and build a more authentic vision for your life.

Many of us who’ve been involved in affairs have written our mate out of our future, replacing them with our affair partner. It’s depressing indeed if we consider renewing our life with our mate when we either have no vision of a future with them or if all we can see is the negative vision we created to justify our affair.

I once heard a story of a man who obtained an audience with a “holy man” he had always admired. When they sat down together the young man immediately began telling this man what he was learning and how he was growing. Eventually as the conversation lagged, the “holy man” asked the young man if he’d like a cup of tea. “Of course,” he replied. The holy man then took a cup and began pouring tea. Only he didn’t stop when the cup was full he just kept on pouring the tea, filling the saucer, and then spilling tea all over the table as cup and saucer over flowed. “What are you doing?” cried the young man. “You are so full of your own opinions, how can you consider something new until you first empty your cup?”

Moving on requires a willingness to “empty our cup” to make room for new possibilities. Consider the possibility that you don’t really know your mate. Allow yourself to be curious about who they are. Be open to having new conversations. When I’m working with someone who’s moving on (away from the affair), I encourage them to begin getting to know their mate anew. To try and look beyond the history and the stories you’ve told yourself about them and consider them as a mystery that has yet to be solved. I have couples begin doing strategic planning where they identify a mission and mutual goals. I have them create milestones that allow them to see forward movement. I have them dream dreams of a wonderful future together.

Moving on also requires the support of others who can set an example for new ways to interact. As Einstein says, “No problem can be solved by the same consciousness that created it.” Find others who can either support you or mentor you who have been through infidelity before and have come out on the other side as you move toward your new goals. Focus on what needs to be done to build a healthy marriage and minimize those things or those people that tear it down. Be intentional. Find expert help.

If you want tips and direction on strengthening your marriage, check out the Recovery Library and survival blogs. The new categories will greatly enhance your ability to find just the right resource to help with healing. There is hope for you and your spouse regardless of how dark it may seem or feel. Perhaps it’s time to let go and move on to a new life?



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How to tell if someone has REALLY "let go" of their AP

My ex-husband divorced me for his AP and she ended their relationship. Initially, he told me he ended it...about 6 months later, I learned the truth, but not from him. When he announced he was leaving me, he denied it was for someone else...another lie. The affair was unknown to me for over a year. He was very much in love with this young (20+ years younger), married mother. He bought a house 2 blocks from mine (yet another secret) and she moved in with him...the beginning of his plans for their permanent future, as he did want to marry her. For the past 4 years we have been "involved", but I question his motives for the relationship. When he left us for his AP, he destroyed his relationship with our son and needed me to repair it. In addition, he spent huge sums of money during the affair, so there were also financial issues. He has lied to me repeatedly and manipulates information in order to control what happens...always to get whatever it is that he wants. He and his AP were very public in their criticisms of me, but he does not speak negatively of her or seem to harbor any anger towards her whatsoever. Because of this I believe that he is still in denial and holds out hope that, at some point, she will return to him. I have no reason, based on his behavior, to think he wouldn't take her back. Our son (only child), left for college and my ex-husband was transferred to another city....so, for the first time he is truly alone. Our relationship, dealing with the affair, building trust, open communication, quality time...validating me and placing a priority on us...has only very recently become important to him. Because of the circumstances...I question the sincerity of his "sudden concern" for me and our relationship. I do not trust his motives and don't want to be used any more. He is very comfortable lying....how do I know if I'm being used, yet again?

perhaps good advice to leave the betrayer as well

My D-day was 8 years ago, he had a 3 year affair with a manlipuative coworker. I have been a faithful follower of this website, and brought myself out of misery. It was a long, hard journey, and even though I asked my husband to join me many times he declined. Not that he wasn't remorseful, embarrassed by his behavior or otherwise supportive of me. We have been in a really good place for a long time, happy, laughing , giggling, lots of affection and attention and yes sex. Our family has been functioning and happy, great four kids. That all changed this weekend. He went out to go shopping--no problem. I planned a bit of rare alone time surprise while he was gone. And lo and behold, he wasn't in a romantic mood. I know him well enough to know exactly when and why that happens, and it turned out to my fault! really? really? Given a few hours I know he'd be fine. Reality has returned with a vengeance. He is pleading with me to believe him that he wasn't in the mood. I'm fighting wanting to believe him, and knowing him intimately for 20 years, and knowing that history has a way of repeating itself. I know I have to leave him, I know I have to shut the door on my dream, and for what my kids don't realize yet. I don't know how to get there, still in the crying stage. Is it possible to hurt even more? He keeps insisting there is no one else, but I've heard and bought into that lie before. Otherwise he won't say anything, I have nothing to go on. I'm at a crossroads, four kids, stay at home mom because his job takes him all over the state. (we couldn't function as a family when I worked) I'm going to go reread the last few articles, and pray for strength. I know he left himself open to this since he never went to counseling, but I'm still floored. I said never again. Maybe the next column should be on the surprise of when it happens again.


Did you find out if he in fact had an affair again? I completely and totally understand your pain and doubt. However, feelings can lie to us. You've been through so much heartache it's probably hard to trust yourself. Ask God to reveal the truth to you if you haven't already found out. It's been almost three years since my D-Day. Sometimes I still feel like it's yesterday. Sometimes it's like I don't even think about them together. The pain has been unimaginable. If he truly did it again, I understand you leaving him. However if it isn't solid evidence continue to pray for light to be brought to it. I cannot blame if you leave. I will leave if it ever happens again, also. I will not walk down this road again because I know in my heart I could never trust him again. I can't live in a relationship like that. It's amazing how I was never a jealous person. I was relaxed and carefree. I trusted him with all I had inside of me. Wow the new perspective I have on life. Not all of it is negative. Truly there are so many positives. However, he has changed like your husband. It has to be a change that is forever. Sincerely wishing you the very best.

Letting Go

I wish my husband had read this (and lived it). It would of made a huge difference in our marriage.


I literally JUST stepped out of my therapist's office and opened up the email with the link to this article. My therapist and I JUST got done talking about this SAME EXACT subject: letting go, and moving on. This article is just as applicable for me, the hurt spouse, as it is for my husband. I can't change the past. I can't change what's already happened. I am learning how to deal with all the triggers and images and deceit of what has happened. No, I can never change what happened, I can only choose to let it go, and choose to move forward into something new. My husband's actions are not excused, and he's dealing with it and making changes that I can see. Because of that, I do see a future. Because I can SEE changes, it makes it easier to trust. I will take what I've learned with me as I go. Thanks Rick. I don't feel this was a coincidence at all, but God reaffirming what I just heard and what I know in my heart. Now, on to healing!

getting over my AP

This has been incredibly helpful. I feel like I have been stuck in anger and then depression. I have been at a loss as to HOW to move out of this...I think it's a really great point about focusing on building a new future together. I like the idea of getting to know one another again, and mutual goals.

Thank you Rick! The last 3

Thank you Rick! The last 3 articles you posted have really helped me. I have been dealing with extreme anger toward my AP lately now that I realize how sleazy he was and how he lied and tricked me for the year we were seeing one another. I struggle with this emotion because it has been over a year since I told my spouse about the affair and my husband and I are doing quite well. This article helped me a lot in dealing with this issue. I really like when you said "The solution to anger is identifying the emotions behind the anger and having courage to walk through that pain." Thank you.

Doubting my judgement....doubting her

The discovery of my wife's affair has made me doubt my judgement. I never thought she could do this and my whole world and reality was lost when I found the pictures and learned about her deceit. I thought she was the last person who would have had an affair. I believe the shock is why it is taking so long to recover.
Everything she does and says shows that she is apologetic, sorrowful, repentant and humbled. She is the picture perfect example of someone trying to reconcile their affair and heal their marriage.

But this hashed me doubt my own judgement. I am having a hard time believing she is truly honest. She did it once and she may do it again. All these recent articles are making me doubt that she has even tellig the truth about her feelings.

How can I really ever know? Blind faith and trust in her did not work before. Why should it be the answer now?

doubting her

For what it is worth, I am in the very same boat a year and a half after discovery of her affair. After 16 years of marriage, I now question whether she had other affairs in the past and whether our whole marriage has been a complete sham. I never would have thought she would do this to me. Who is this person that I am married to? Who is the person who is the mother of our two children? I love my wife to no end, but the absolute hardest thing for me to wrap my head around is whether or not she has told me the truth about anything, anything at all. I doubt my own judgement now. For the first time in my life, I feel hopeless.

Yep..I don't trust her

Wife is still in the midst of an over 2 year emotional affair. D-day was over 3 months ago. She has little self-awareness and is still in contact with the AP. In counseling, but not very motivated to step away from EA. Starting to wonder if I'm being naive to think she will let go and come back to the marriage. I had the same feelings as S; can she ever again be faithful? Do I want to go through my life with someone who isn't who they said they were?

Yep..I don't trust her

Wife is still in the midst of an over 2 year emotional affair. D-day was over 3 months ago. She has little self-awareness and is still in contact with the AP. In counseling, but not very motivated to step away from EA. Starting to wonder if I'm being naive to think she will let go and come back to the marriage. I had the same feelings as S; can she ever again be faithful? Do I want to go through my life with someone who isn't who they said they were?