I don’t feel as though the uncertainty and insecurity was addressed in this video for the betrayed.
I’m 9 weeks out from more disclosure.
This is after more than 2 years of trickle truth and learning about an unbelievably dark underbelly life my UH was/has been involved in.
I required a polygraph 8 weeks before attending EMS Intensive Weekend 11 weeks ago. So many more layers of deception came slowly bubbling out with the polygraph.
I picture a Yellowstone mudpot continuing bubbling without stopping. The new realities just kept bubbling forth. My imagination was no where near as creative as he was in his deception.
Seeing that he was capable of doing this to himself, and now, I am also seeing him attend his weekly SA call, H4H after call, IC phone session and MFL call, I am still very guarded about being vulnerable with him.
I’m in IC and I also participate in HH after calls weekly. Our MFL group has dwindled to 3 couples 7 weeks in, and this is our attendance on the call on a good week.
The triggers keep showing up from places I never thought I would be triggered by.
Hope some days is good, Other days I am hanging by a thread.
How does one allow themselves to be vulnerable once again?