I can totally relate to your situation. I am at the 6 month time period after discover of my husbands multiple emotional affairs over several years (i.e. dating many women), lying about where he is going, etc.). I discovered this by accident on Christmas day when my husband handed me his cell phone so I could set up his fit bit. An email was on the screen when I opened it. I was distraught about what I read, so I forwarded it to my own email to read in privacy. Since then, my investigative abilities kicked in and I discovered the rest. I never had any reason to not trust him. My husband acts as if it is my problem. We went to joint counciling but I stopped it since he was obstinate about his privacy, continued to lie about what was going on (until I provided proof - which I did). He still will not sincerely appoligize, nor will he help me to recover. I am the only one who is working on getting through this. He just wants me to get over this and for use to resume where we were. Now, today, I discovered that he has been looking at porn on the sly. I am not a prude, but this just adds insult to injury. I am in individual counciling to determine what I want, but I think it is quickly leading to separation/divorce. So sad, after 26 great years of marriage. I really feel that there is something wrong with my husband for him to behave the way he has the last few years.