It seems that people giving me advice are expecting me to make a definitive decision on working on the marriage or filing for divorce. I struggled to make that decision. Then I realized there is no hurry. I am torn on whether the marriage is something I want long term and yet we do enjoy some fun times together now. So how do I reconcile the fact I may not be 100% committed to repairing the marriage yet I don't necessarily feel the need to file for divorce right away. There are days I think this will get behind us and we will move on, and other days she will do things and I'll think I don't want to stay married to her.