My husband says that he doesn’t want a divorce and he is still in love with me but yet he cannot touch me, hug me, kiss me, or show any affection. I have to literally beg for a hug or hold hands, even after finding out about his ongoing massage parlors for happy endings. The massages went on for at least a year and he swears he will never do it again. What am I supposed to do at this point after 17 years of marriage? How can we be in a sexless marriage for 17 years? I beg for any type of intimacy and sex; at most it happens three times a month. I started your program so I can heal within myself and not be a bitter person later on in life, but I am hurting so bad.