Thankyou - moved to tears. Thankyou for sharing with such honesty and humility. Gods work in you shines such hope into our shattered lives.

Thank you Rodney and Angela, we are 22 months from D-Day, much hurt and pain healed, but of course still some triggers. I so appreciate the hope there is in your story.

What Rodney said about living a double life makes sense to me. My real self loves my partner and never wanted to cause this destruction and pain. My deceived self has lied and cheated for no good reason. I was self-centered, arrogant and dishonest. I never involved God in my life plans and so made poor choices that were inconsiderate of others. Now in the wake of the chaos I've caused, I see that I can no longer ignore God's will. I've asked God to come into my life, to guide me. I'm not sure if my partner will forgive me, but I cling to hope and do have the clarity now that the way to live out the rest of my days is to serve God and grow my relationship with Him.