Rick Reynolds, LCSW
by Rick Reynolds, LCSW
Founder & President, Affair Recovery

20 Most Common Mistakes of the Unfaithful Spouse

mistakes of the unfaithfulAfter the revelation of an affair or other sexually inappropriate behavior it unfortunately, is very easy for the unfaithful spouse to make a series of well-meaning mistakes which only complicates the situation. Listed below are some of the most common ones we see in our practice.

We hope that this information will help guide your actions. Navigating your relationship in the wake of infidelity, regardless of whether or not your spouse is aware of the affair, is overwhelmingly complicated.  But, you're not the first to be in this tumultuous situation. We've seen these actions in couples time and again. If you can avoid them, your road to recovery may be smoother, but if you've already committed them, it doesn't mean you should give up hope. Do what you can do to avoid these actions in the future.

1. Naively believing that if you and your affair partner decide to do the right thing and return to your marriages, that the affair is  indeed over.

In reality, this relationship probably meant more to one party than the other. For that reason, just because you decide to end the affair doesn't mean the other party will honor your decision, or even that you will. The "Break-up, Make-up" cycle is a natural part of an affair. But you cannot begin to heal your marriage until you take a stand and absolutely refuse contact. However, don't be naïve; the next attempt or temptation to contact is bound to come. Denial of an impending reality will only leave you vulnerable to relapse. So, prepare yourself for having to firmly and definitively refuse contact.

For more information on making a unilateral decision to end an affair, read "Ending an Affair" - a 6 part series.


2. Leaking out information over time.

The revelation of an affair or sexual addiction is a frightening process, but one of the worst mistakes is trying to hold back the whole truth. Similarly, spinning the truth so your mate won't be so upset is just as damaging.

The problem with leaking information is that it delays your mate's ability to learn to trust you again. If your mate believes that you've laid out the whole truth and nothing but the truth, that there are no more surprises or painful revelations yet to come and then your mate encounters multiple "oh by the ways" or other discoveries as time goes on, then it will eventually destroy your mate's ability to believe a single word you say.

For that reason, it is best to lay it all out on the front end. It’s never a good idea to try to control your mate by the flow of information. Either your mate will be able to handle the truth or not. Getting the truth out, all of it and unvarnished to your mate is a great opportunity to display real integrity and safety: something you may feel you've been lacking if you've had to hide your actions or lie. Don't miss your chance. Tell the whole truth as soon as you can.

For more information regarding full disclosure watch the video: "Reaching Ground Zero - the Importance of Full Disclosure"

Also, you can read our 4 part series: "A Crucial Step to Surviving Infidelity: Discovery."

3. Being defensive.

The antidote to defensiveness is taking personal responsibility. Defensiveness is the number one thing to avoid when talking with your hurt spouse. If you become defensive, then your mate will only assume you don't understand and he or she will begin to turn up the volume. During this period in our lives, one of my wife's favorite questions was, "How loud am I going to have to get before you hear me?" I always knew when I heard that line that it was time to listen. It is extremely painful for the unfaithful spouse to examine what has happened, but minimizing, blaming one's mate, or even blaming another party, is not a solution.

Since the revelation of a betrayal is so traumatic, there is no room for defensiveness. You're better off using two phrases: 1) "You're right" (when they are right) and 2) "I deserve that" (when they are wrong). Answering the "why" questions is tricky at best. Any explanation you give will be perceived as an excuse. The best answer for the why questions is to tell your mate you will do everything possible to search for the answer, but admit you don't want to sound defensive while trying to answer a question you don't necessarily know the answer to. Whatever you do, don't be defensive.

At this point, you might be saying, "I don't want to take all the blame; my wife (or husband) made her (or his) own contributions to what has happened. We had issues in this relationship long before I had an affair." And while that may be true, your first order of business needs to be the stabilization of the marriage. Give your mate time to recover, and then begin to address the other issues in the marriage. One of your first steps will be avoiding defensiveness when talking with your mate.

4. Believing everything your mate says.

When people are emotional and hurt they may say things they don't mean. If your mate says "I want a divorce," don't assume that you are going to be divorced. If your mate resorts to name calling or trying to hurt you by threatening to take your kids, don't overreact. After all is said and done, there will always be a lot more said than done. If your mate asks you to get out, then accommodate, but don't assume it's for the long run. A new day will most likely bring different feelings. If anything, you can be assured that feelings will shift over time.

Warning: While you are taking your mate's words with a grain of salt do not minimize what your mate is telling you. Listen empathetically, and let your mate know you heard what was said. Just don't structure the remainder of your life on what a hurt spouse says, especially in the first three months after the revelation of the affair. Balance your thoughts about your mate's word between sincerely hearing and understanding that every word may not stick.

5. Living life as normal.

You can't go on living life as normal if you want to bring healing to your marriage after a betrayal. Normal is what got you into this. Changes need to be made to give your mate assurance that you're taking responsibility for your problem and being proactive to prevent it from happening again. 

We have had clients who continue to go to the bar or stay out late without informing their spouses where they are or who they are with. To some, it may seem elementary to make sure and build safety in a concrete way, but it cannot be stressed enough. Taking responsibility for your betrayal by avoiding high risk situations and getting the necessary help to get your life (as well as that of your mate) back into safety is part of taking responsibility for your infidelity. If you want to rebuild your marriage, this is not optional. Make them aware of the ways that you have altered your life in order to create a culture of safety. These are the things that will assure her that it's not "life as normal."

6. Trying to defend your affair partner.

It may seem to go without saying, but don't defend the other woman (or man). Most likely your mate will trash the affair partner (or if you've been using porn she may just try to trash you). Don't try to defend your affair partner. It's easier for your spouse to be angry with the affair partner than it is for her (or him) to be angry with you, and if you defend the affair partner, your mate is likely to feel that you are more loyal to the affair partner than you are to your mate and your marriage.

 7. Trying to avoid talking with your mate about their feelings.

The way the betrayed deal with trauma caused by infidelity is by talking about their feelings. In fact, they may need to restate the same thing, or ask the same question multiple times. We the unfaithful tend to feel that our betrayed mates are bringing it up just to make us feel bad or shame us. That's not the case; it's just how they heal. Answer your mate's questions, 20 times if need be. In the long run, they will appreciate your openness and you will have helped them heal while also working to create a ‘safe’ climate for you both to heal.

8. Pointing out your mate's faults and failures.

Deficiencies certainly exist in every marriage, but now is not the time to deal with them. First, you have to re-establish the fidelity and stability of the relationship. Then, after the breach in the relationship is repaired, you can address other issues. Early on, the unfaithful spouse must learn to embrace the spotlight being on their own life before any issues within the betrayed spouse can be discussed.

9. Taking your spouse to the same places you frequented with your affair partner.

One of the most difficult battles the hurt spouse fights is the one of reminders. On any given day your spouse might have as many as 50 to 60 reminders. Each time, your spouse has to calm themselves down and get back in control of the emotions. Taking your mate to a place where your mate knows you were with your affair partner will cause your mate serious pain. For your spouse's sake, be sensitive to places that will serve as a reminder and bring pain.

10. Telling a lie (of any sort).

Giving your mate good reason to feel safe is one of your goals. Telling a lie (even the smallest of lies) only reinforces the belief that your mate cannot trust you. As difficult as it may seem, tell the truth. In the long run, your mate will at least know that you're being real with them even if your mate doesn't like what you're telling them.

11. Not supporting your mate's recovery.

The pain of the revelation of a betrayal is disorienting to both partners. Both the husband and wife will struggle with how to cope with the pain resulting from the event. Sometimes it can be frustrating since frequently the hurt spouse takes longer to move past the initial trauma than the unfaithful spouse.

In these situations, the hurt spouse wants to continue to understand what has happened and wants to continue to talk about it; the unfaithful spouse will often interpret that as an attempt at punishment. This may cause the unfaithful spouse to quit trying to support the other's recovery. At some point, it may be very tempting to tell your mate to "just get over it."
In fact, it may seem like a good idea in terms so that you can move on, but if the initial period of recovery doesn't run its course, it can result in future problems. If your mate represses her/his feelings and doesn't finish processing what has happened, then the feelings will begin to surface again in about 5 years.

In reality, you are far better off to support your mate's recovery at the time of the betrayal rather than living five years with a mate who is hurting and who will eventually blow up.

12. Not being consistent in your recovery plan.

After a betrayal, there is an obvious problem with trust. To re-establish trust, an unfaithful spouse has to be consistent in what he or she says and does. It may seem easy for you to think even a minor inconsistency is no big deal because you know your heart's condition and your intent, but your mate does not.

The only thing a hurt spouse can rebuild on are your behaviors. If you are consistent and do what you say, then over time your mate can begin to trust again. But if you fail to follow through with what you say, it will only serve to reinforce your mate's distrust. It is imperative that you say what you mean and mean what you say. Don't make the mistake of telling your mate what you think she/he wants to hear only to fail to follow through. You will be far better off if you're realistic, and then do what you say even if what you say (and then do) is not as grand as you or your mate had hoped.

13. Not keeping commitments you make with your mate.

This is much the same as the above item. If you tell your mate you will not eat lunch with another woman, then don't go out to eat with another woman (or man if that's where your temptations lie). If you tell your spouse that you'll go to counseling together, then go to counseling together. If you agree to be home at 6:00, then make sure you're home by 6:00. If you agree to go to an accountability group, then go to the group. Failure to keep these types of agreements, though small in perceived impact, will cast doubt on any and all of your integrity and make it difficult for your mate to trust.

14. Telling your mate to forgive you.

As a general rule, never tell someone to forgive you. You can ask, but don't tell. Forgiveness is a process your mate will have to work through. In many ways, it has little to do with you; it's a gift your mate has to give herself/himself. Failure to forgive would result in your mate remaining a victim. It's far better to tell your mate that you want her/him to be able to forgive you and ask if there is anything you can do to help your mate heal and forgive or to make the process easier for them.

Also, don't beat your mate over the head with religious terminology, telling your mate that now that you've asked forgiveness, forgiveness must in fact, be granted. If you tell your mate to forgive, it will only lead to resentment and make it more difficult to forgive you. Be a part of the solution, not a part of the problem.

15. Not answering all of your mate's questions.

This is a tricky one. How much information a person needs to heal is best determined by personality type. Some individuals need little information before they come to the point where they have enough to understand what has happened and can move on. Others need massive amounts of data before they feel they understand what has happened. For these individuals, what they don't know truly does hurt them. Usually, what they can imagine is far worse than the reality.

One of the greatest gifts you can give is the gift of answered questions. Tell your mate you'll answer all of the questions, but if you feel your mate is asking questions out of anger and in an attempt to hurt you, then call a time out. Use the 24-hour rule. Tell your mate that you'll give whatever information is needed, but you'd first like for your mate to take 24 hours and pray or think critically about whether she/he really wants that information. Then at the end of 24 hours, if your mate still wants the answer then give it, truthfully and completely with no spinning. Giving your mate the information she or he feels is needed is important because your mate must rewrite the history of your relationship. Moving on will be difficult if not impossible until this task is complete. Don't withhold the information that your spouse will need to move on.

16. Not talking to your mate.

There is more than one way to hurt your mate and being passive aggressive is certainly one of them. It's not uncommon for the unfaithful spouse to be angry about what has happened and how the hurt spouse has responded as a result of the pain. Since it may feel inappropriate for the unfaithful spouse to be upset, and clearly they have no right to be verbally aggressive, some unfaithful spouses choose to hurt their mate by not talking. Both aggression and passive aggression are intended to hurt your mate. Both reveal an absence of love. Give your mate the gift of communication in order to help your mate to heal.

17. Trying to get all of your mate's friends and family on your side.

You might be hoping they will help your mate to "wake up and see reality." Some of your friends may come on board. But that does not mean that your mate will listen. In fact, it’s very common for this strategy to backfire and only increase hostility and resentment towards you. Other friends may believe and reinforce the fact that your spouse is correct in leaving someone so controlling if you try this approach.

18. Believing there is a simple formula or a set course to fix the problem.

It would be nice if there were, but each type of affair has its own set of challenges with a different set of solutions that are not linear or stepwise, and are unique to each situation and couple.

19. Threatening your mate.

In the moment, it may seem that your threats will make your spouse "see the light" and that will convince her/him to "fly right." But it's important to avoid making threats because it generates the false motivations for complying with your wishes.

Threats result in fear, guilt, and shame. While these motivators may serve in the short term to get your mate to follow your desired course of action, they will only be effective as long as these feelings continue to produce pain. Once the fear, guilt and shame wear off, then your mate will lose motivation.

You are far better off being supportive and telling your mate "I hope you choose to stay with me, but I want you to do what God is telling you to do." Coercion from a mate can actually drive your spouse away.

20. Using your children or grandchildren as pawns.

Frequently, this happens in an attempt to manipulate one's mate into staying. But this will only hurt your children. If your mate is determined to leave, forcing or manipulating your mate into staying is neither good nor healthy for your relationship or family.

Conclusion

Having read about these common mistakes, don't feel doomed if you've already committed half or even all of them. That's the point – these are common mistakes. But if you can avoid them in the future, you'll begin to stabilize your relationship and find that you can move forward. Don't give up hope at healing your relationship. You may even consider taking time to apologize to your mate for any or all of these mistakes you’ve committed in the healing process. It will speak volumes to your mate that you’ve come to see how wrong you were and how your choices affected them. To begin the healing process, a great first step would be to complete our Free First Steps Bootcamp for Surviving Infidelity. This 7 Day bootcamp goes through many of these mistakes in detail as you learn to navigate this process. If you've completed the Bootcamp, a next step is signing up for EMS Online or the in-person, weekend intensive, EMS Weekend or Hope for Healing our course for the unfaithful spouse. If you’d like more information please call 888-527-2367 or email Info@hope-now.com.

 

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Wow

I wished I would've read this 6 months ago!

Well Put

Good information. Not easy to follow at all times but you've got to stick with it.

Do they care?

These are great points. The problem is most unfaithful spouses don't care and won't read it, especially at the early stages of discovery. I guess it helps for us betrayed to know that these are common mistakes, so we don't feel so alone when we see them from our unfaithful.

I'm sorry to hear that most

I'm sorry to hear that most unfaithful spouses won't read this or care. On the contrary, my husband was committed to working things out. Which meant he was extremely attentive to what I needed. We read many of these articles together. I admit I asked a lot of very feeling oriented & detailed questions early on- I couldn't help myself, I was so shocked by the disclosure. Over time I was able to ask in a calmer way. It was more about fact finding & intellectualizing how & why the affair started & continued. I began to understand that asking questions I knew wouldn't devastate me were much better. I aske myself first "why do I need to know this? Will it be helpful in my healing? Is it a healthy question? Will both of us learn & grow?" Not only did I get better answers we both became more self aware & more intimate in our own relationship. Also, many of the thoughts rolling around in my heart & mind weren't as bad as I made them out to be. This statement is a mantra: real but not true. The feelings I had were real but for the most part the images were not fully true.

My husband would read, watch or listen to pretty much anything I asked him to b/c he knew it would help me. If it helped me it would create more trust, healing & intimacy which would help him! I encourage you to kindly ask your spouse to support you by reading articles like these then allow for lots of conversation after.

The Mistakes

Not to be harsh, but my wife did just about if not all now that I think about it. Wow! It was crazy to hear and watch her actions. Then there was an outside influence in a friend as well. Thanks.

Uncertainty

I still feel as though there will be more Ddays. He's trying to be honest, but is still defensive at times. He doesn't claim to remember the time line well enough to give me a solid picture. Basically admits there are aspects he isn't sharing for fear of me knowing him too well.

I'm feeling stuck.

Mistakes

I have made most of them and it has created a nitemare. It has not allowed my wife to heal, sometimes I think at all. I come from a family that did not show emotion and I have no idea how to deal with her's. The biggest issue today is trust. She constantly accuses me of things that are not true but cannot be proven, mainly what my thoughts are and feelings are. It has been 1 1/2 years since contact was broken with the affair partner and we are no better off. The problem I have is how to respond to the accusations. I end up reacting and not responding mainly because I have made a lot of changes and I am defending myself. This is obviously not the right way to handle it, but I know no other way. Any pointers from someone that is where I am would be great. I have been told to take it, but if I do it seems to reinforce what she believes.

I almost wonder if you're my husband...

But there is a minor difference in the story and you posted 29 days ago, but we blew up back in November of 2015.

I was that wife. Constantly accusing. But my H did not cease all contact, as that was not possible because she is his boss.

And his willful refusal to get another job and sever all ties with her was the reason I didn't trust.

Not more than a year later, I caught him sending her inappropriate text messages and FB PM's again. She then promoted him and had him working long, late hours, very closely with her.

And then she had him out running HER personal errands, while telling me he was at work.

Of course, I went off the deep end when he took the promotion. And every late night was an accusation and a fight. And there was the little hussy at work telling him that his home life was having a bad effect on him doing his job and he needed to get his head right about his home life.

Then he started to push and push and push... going out, staying out all night, telling OBVIOUS lies, playing mind games with me... it all blew up on Dec 27th. By Dec 29th,he was living in her house and the same day he claims he moved in with her, is the same day that he removed me from the bank account that his paycheck got deposit to.

He says he's done. He wants a divorce. He hates me and can't stand me. I have too much angst. That's an excuse to have an affair and leave the marriage? I dunno, I wish he'd pass me that bong he's smoking, cause that must me some good stuff in there.

Finally, he told me that he thinks he took it because he knew it would end the marriage, and that the marriage was actually over for him a year before he met her... there you... the 'workaround' excuse for never having done the 'work' to recover from the affair in the first place.

Empathy

It is very good that you came clean and told the hole truth to your spouse. Every person takes a different amount of time to heal. You must remain patient and empathetic to her needs because she is dealing with trusting you again. Counselling is strongly recommended.

Still hurting

My husband and I have been married for 3 years.... Lived together for two prior to marriage- he is in his 50's and I in my 40's. Not our first marriage.

I thought. I found. Someone mature and settled. It wasn't until after we were married that I discovered the affair! ( 3 months after- because the tramp he was seeing sent me images of their texts for over the past couple of years. Included were photos shared. I was furious!

He stated the affair ended in Dec. we were married in April. However, I receive cruel notes on my door , calls in the middle of the night and emails from this woman. A restraining order haseen taken out- in front of the judge this woman lies and denies she sent the emails etc. Since I cannot prove it... The case was dropped. The threats cont as well as the accusations that they still see each other!
I moved out- back to my home. He was sincerely apologetic. I do love him and decided to try to work through it. I am still angry- I still ask question- I am still hurt! He tells me to get over it already! Curses at me, calls me names. I am now on guard when he interacts with any woman- he is extremely jovial when another woman pays attention to him ( yes I give him attention and never denied him anything emotionally, intimately...)

He defends other women, however continues to point out my flaws as if I don't already know- he deflects and turns the argument on me as if I have done wrong.

I am not ugly, I am not overweight... I don't know why he has to insult ME- when all I want is answers.

I want to move past this - I love my husband - if I were to ask him to read / watch this- it will only cause me more grief and hurt. " Get over it!"

Honesty

I discovered his current affair about 6 months ago. Thought we were moving forward, than found text between them in October. He has since acknowledged he has been seeing another(s) for at least 16 years. Believe he lost sexual interest in me after our child was born. I am a pretty woman, talented in many ways. My friends and colleagues would tell you I am anything but dull or unsexy. But he has put me in a box. Would you be able to repost or send me that audio recording about" Why her" Our marriage is done as he has told me he can't lie to me further as he is disgusted with himself. He will not come clesn about the current or recent affair. 16 years of infidelity would make that self evident. I appreciate it if you could attach that post as I no longer can find it. It made me feel much better as he has been trying to blame me, but I realized hearing that posting it really is not me at all. Thankyou Jeannine

she a hard women

I had to read this to her as I don't think she wanted to read on her own but the steps had our relationship to a T i hope

Struggling.... totally ignored

I wish my man had the type of care for me to read this. He doesn't. I found out about the unfaithfulness almost a year ago. His reaction as been to do pretty much all the above. I, the last year tried to suppress my hurt and disappointment. It worked most of the past year until now. Im so angry at myself, at him, at love in general. I cry soo much. I want him to talk to me. He shuts me out and avoids it or gaslights. Its to the point i feel my love for him is dying. He hasn't been there for me to find closure. I've been left to figure answers myself which obviously are horrific. I am the type of personality that needs lots of questions answered to process information. He has gone totally left with that.

It just hurts and im tired of feeling unloved.

Unbelievable Sadness

This is a God-send website. I just found out my best-friend, lover, love of my life, whom I adore and am in love with cheated on me. When I suspected it as a result of finding inappropriate text messages or email, the issue quickly became my fault for "going through my stuff" privacy this and that - I would be the "bad" person for going through and saying something! But the issue of cheating made it's way to me by way of an STD and God knows I have been faithful since the moment I laid eyes on him! I am finding it difficult and almost impossible to talk to my 3 close friends but am finally getting some relief from this website. The videos you have made are priceless and I am praying that their impact on my best friend, and love of my life will be such that I don't have to suffer through the turmoil of the mistakes he's already making (avoidance talking about it, impatience ("get over it") telling me it's over, but coming home late -- phone in the bathroom still, texting in the bathroom :( it's all devastating and I'm hanging on by just a thin thread right now. Please pray for me as this is the most unbelievable paralyzing pain that leaves me feeling ashamed, dishonored, I feel less of a woman, I feel deep deep sadness, I'm crying all the time, I've loss my appetite. I NEVER ever would have thought he would have done this and I am terribly afraid because of all the emotions I feel, but I feel imprisoned to the situation and most importantly - HIS RESPONSE to my knowledge about it, and his overall response to his transgression will determine ultimately if I can survive this horrible event - one which I do not wish upon ANYONE. I am also very devastated that the other woman knows me, and knows how crazy in love I was with this man - and still chose to go down that path with him. I try hard to think of anything else but that situation, and I am so grateful when 2 hours go by and I haven't thought about it. But then there's moments in the day and night when I get a vision in my head and it makes me just want to cry out and curl up in a ball. It is the MOST PAINFUL event (other than putting my dog down and the death of my mother and dad). In fact, I have to say it is the WORST painful event for some odd reason - maybe because he is alive and I know he CHOSE to do what he did. And well, for me - what that means is that he was willing to risk our relationship. You see, I knew I was in love with this man because I am NOT willing to risk my relationship with him. Not ever in a million years. I just hoped he felt the same about me. So my reality is that I am not "that" special after all. Thank you for allowing me to post my thoughts. The past few minutes have been therapeutic for me and the pain is just overwhelming. I find myself wanting to accommodate him almost allowing him to control how we handle this situation. But as much as I'd like to believe I can get over it - what Rick Reynolds speaks about is SO SPOT ON!!!! That helped me feel validated and confirmation that I am responding in a normal manner. thank you so much for your time and attention to my comment.

Devastated

I found out two week ago. Like you I have found the pain of this is WORSE in some ways than losing my wonderful mum. My husband is generally a good honest man and can't understand how it went that far. But I am finding it really hard to trust him even though he say's he still really loves me. HOW DO YOU MOVE ON??????

Husbands of 23 yrs Was caught but denied it all still

I Just found this site I believe for a reason because I was walking iinto Our Bedroom to tell him I'm leaving because of his Affair but mostly because he won't admit to any of it when caught red handed.. I will be back on in the AM since I have no privacy when he is here... I'm getting to where I can't stand to go to bed... This Man was My World... as he says I'm his .. but how when I think he is still seeing her or at least texting in the bathroom like another member stated her husband did .. I'm going to take a breather before I go and talk to him...Any Prayers would be appreciated... Thanks and Hope You all have a Peaceful Night...❤️

So glad you shared your heart

I am so glad you shared your heart as I TOTALLY resonate with everything you said.
I too was devastated by my discovery that my wife was in an affair and even more devastated when she decided to divorce me.
Please, please let me know if you can how you are doing now - some 9 months from when you posted this, it would do my heart good to know that I too will make it, that one day I will smile again - because weeping is what I do now.

Sense should prevail...

None of the points in both sections are difficult to understand. Following the guidelines may be harder but certainly not impossible if we try to be careful, as I am working hard to do in these early days. I am very hurt and I have not yet decided to stay, he has yet to fully comprehend or openly discuss the whole story, some defensive behaviour and some avoidance to complete disclose. Almost as if he's holding on to something sacred and doesn't want to lose it by sharing it with me, very painful but I have the heart condition to be patient, we have a family. I have chosen to remain patient because it took eight years to get us to here, it will take time to salvage anything that may be salvageable. I am hopeful and open minded, I would recommend open minds to any hurt spouse, particularly if children are involved, careful not to abandon the relationship for the sake of abandoning and no other good reason. Take the time to ascertain whether it's still worth saving. Never a great idea to make huge, life-altering decisions whilst angry and in pain. We put pressure on ourselves to reach a resolution hurriedly but if it isn't required to speed through it, please be gentle with your pace. I am so grateful for the guidance of such articles and for any help I can glean from anywhere that will assist me to walk the best path for us as a family. As I said, early days so it's hard to tell but I accept people make mistakes and I also have a responsibility for the breakdown. Let's all treat one another with grace and try to remember what brought us together in the first place, distant as it may feel today, it may be what keeps us moving forward and growing from our pain. I wish everyone going through this experience a steady and satisfying return to joy. May your families prevail. xx

Good Advice

This is very good advice. However, most times the unfaithful spouse will not admit to their affair. My husband was having an emotional affair with my second cousin. I found out by mistake. He asked me to help him recover his email password. I saw numerous messages from her. Smiley faces with hearts for eyes. Messages that she wants to be with him etc. When I asked him about it he quickly deleted all the messages. I also found out that he went to her birthday party and lied to me about it(he said he was at a male friends party). He kept saying nothing is going on. She even had the nerve to message him about me telling him that I was sneaky and that he should ask me why I decided to join Facebook. He of course denied denied denied. I am not 100% sure that a physical affair did not occur.
If my husband would admit he did wrong and not turn everything back at me. I most likely could slowly forgive. However, I am so angry and do not not trust him. I would also have more respect for him if he would man up and admit to his affair instead of lying about it(he lies even when proof is shown to him). My point to this rant is if you cheat on your spouse please just admit to it. Stop being a coward and admit that you betrayed the marriage.

Lost in Anger

I was so caught up in my own hurt and anger I made many of these mistakes and held on to my anger and now that I have actually humbled myself and come to the realization that no matter what my husband was doing did not justify what I did. I own my mistakes and I have hurt him deeply. I am longing for him to forgive me it is very painful watching him suffering and not being able to make it go away. As he has said how ironic is it that I caused the pain now I want to fix it. It took a couple months for me to realize I was so lost after he found out about the affair and then I didn't know where to go from there. He feels deserted by friends and family he is very toxic. I am still holding out hope and in God in love I believe it is possible to worth through it. It is not easy and his heart is very hardened. Why do we hurt those we love so much?

Or just not admit that the affair is going on for 3.5 years

If he blames me for everything, won't even admit that the affair is currently still going on... is there ANY HOPE ?