Rick Reynolds, LCSW
by Rick Reynolds, LCSW
Founder & President, Affair Recovery

Social Shame: Understanding the Paralysis of it

Social Shame: A Four-Part Series

Part 1: Understanding the Paralysis of it
Part 2: Have you Been Dishonored?
Part 3: Surviving Infidelity Isn't Enough
Part 4: Four Ways to Stay in it

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This week I'd like to take a closer look at a common obstacle to recovery: Shame. If you've been unfaithful, the appropriate question probably isn't, "Are you dealing with shame," but more aptly, "How are you handling the shame of it all?" If you've been betrayed and your spouse seems extremely uncooperative or ambivalent, your spouse may be feeling imprisoned by shame and not even realize it.

What Is Shame?

It's easy to confuse guilt with shame. Guilt is that rock in your stomach when you know you've done something wrong. It's not necessarily a bad thing; typically, guilt means we are aware of our responsibility for an action we regret. Hopefully when we feel guilty, we take responsibility for our actions and then work to make amends (when possible) with the offended party. Shame, however, is a far more entrenched mindset about ourselves.

It changes your identity instead of simply accepting responsibility. We feel guilt for what we have done, but when we've done something that we feel is shameful, we take that on as our identity. Shame continues to ingrain the idea that "I am not worthy." Shame loves to instill feelings of inadequacy, self-contempt, and a deep sense of inferiority.

Shame continues to make everything about me and, thus, prevents true recovery. When I'm dealing with shame and playing the "I'm such a horrible person" card, I can't focus on the damage I've done to others or experience true empathy for them because my focus remains on me. It selfishly puts my betrayed spouse in the position of trying to build me back up and give me a new identity or, at the very least, to curb some of their recovery to acquiesce to my needs. As long as the unfaithful spouse continues to remain paralyzed by his or her own self-absorption, their mate can't truly heal. Shame doesn't accept responsibility for the choices made, it is just another form of justification: "I can't help my bad choices if I'm a bad person."

Three Symptoms of Shame

Shame has a way of bringing out the worst in me, and I can always tell that I'm in shame when I'm acting out of fear, blaming others for my actions, or when I'm disconnected from others.

1. Fear

Shame is fueled by fear. When I'm in shame I'm terrified to bring things out in the open. I'm afraid of being considered inadequate, afraid that if my spouse really knew me, she would never accept me. Shame tells me that if I let my guard down for even a moment, everyone will finally realize what a complete and total failure I am, and I'll face my ultimate fear: rejection. When I'm allowing shame to make me fearful, I can never be fully known and, therefore, I will always feel the need to hide.

2. Blame

Shame, by nature, refuses to admit the truth. No one can make me feel shame; they can only trigger my already existing shame. As I said earlier, shame is a type of justification. Of course I do bad things if I'm a bad person; I can't help it. It's not my fault. This is the lie shame tells us and, quite frankly, it's the coward’s way out. I'm letting myself off pretty easy if I hold myself to such low standards.

If I'm playing my shame card to justify my actions, my spouse has no reason to believe I won't make the same mistake again. Shame does not allow for safety in recovery. Once shame takes over, the pain expressed by the offended party often results in outbursts of anger from the unfaithful spouse because that shame has been triggered. It renders us incapable of being safe for our mate's healing.

3. Disconnection

Shame, at its core, is one of the main villains which rob me of my ability to feel compassion for my mate. Initially, I may feel compassion because of the way I hurt my spouse through my betrayal, but then something else happens. It's a small yet poignant shift as I encounter the pain of my choices. This pain I've caused feels like too much, like it's lasting too long, and I pull back as though I can hide from my choices. We can't process everything, so fear creeps in, which then causes us to blame others and we find ourselves alone. Sometimes, for those still involved in the affair, the only one they'll run to is the affair partner or addiction because that choice is easy. It requires nothing of me to sink deeper into shame.

It’s this disconnection that allows for a deep loneliness which separates me from the ones I love and need most. I’m isolating myself and blaming others out of fear. Unfaithful spouses swing towards shame frequently and it’s the primary component which blocks true connection and empathy for the betrayed spouse.

Hiding in Shame

The unfaithful are, in many ways, led to the slaughter through shame. Take for example the recent story by Samuel, one of our bloggers and survivors of infidelity, about his shame growing up:

My father and mother divorced when I was about a year old after he returned from the Vietnam War. My father would remarry a couple times before his death when I was 25, and my mother would also remarry. The first man she married was an older man, a former professional boxer and a wonderful man, in his own right. He had served time in prison and was a survivor from the streets. He had a big heart, but didn't always know how to express it. When I was about 8, after growing up with him around more than my biological father, he left us. I think he just couldn't adjust to life with a son that wasn't his and a marriage with pressures, responsibilities and expectations. He eventually came back one day when I was about 10. My mom had warned me that he would be coming over when I got home from school. After he left, my mom started working full time, so I would ride my bike home from school and be there alone till she arrived about three hours later. I didn't hate him. More than anything I was confused and terrified of what to do. He had left and if I'm being honest, I think I felt like I caused most of it. I loved him and while he wasn't my biological father, I think for his history and how he grew up, he really did his best. Nevertheless, I was confused and for one of the first palpable times in my life, I remember feeling ashamed. I saw his car pull up and watched him get out. I immediately turned off the TV and any lights and made it seem as though I wasn't home. I ran to my closet in our tiny house, and closed the closet doors and simply hid. It only took him a few minutes to walk through our house and try to find me. Eventually I think he was puzzled a bit and just left. I didn't cry. I didn't yell. I barely remember feeling anything. To this day, I can see the closet and I can feel the loneliness and surreal experience. I hid from someone who loved me and wanted to reconnect with me. I hid from a moment of possible restoration out of confusion, shame and misunderstanding. I wanted to run to him and hug him and welcome him back, but I felt paralyzed. I was in over my head emotionally and had no idea how that moment would mark me.

Looking back, when I made my horrible choices that led to infidelity, I wanted to hide in a closet of shame from everyone. Not just God, but my wife, my friends, any and all father figures and even myself. I felt alone and wanted to hide into my own cave as I felt like my life had been a mistake on so many levels.

Disempowering Shame

There is no quick fix for shame. It's an identity issue. However, we are not without hope, and shame doesn't have to have the last word. Like so many who have come out of the shadows of shame and found freedom from fear, blame, and disconnection, we do have the ability to find new life.

It's one of the reasons I'm such a big proponent of small groups in recovery. When we can share our stories, gain a higher-altitude view of what we've done, and still be loved and accepted, we experience safety. This safety translates over time into love, acceptance, and a strong sense of belonging, all of which are powerful antidotes for shame. To the captive of shame, vulnerability is about as exciting as going for a root canal but, if done whole-heartedly, can lead to incredible freedom. When we can finally admit what we’ve done and be honest, and if we can accept who we are, it’s freeing. As long as I live a performance-based lifestyle, it will remain all about me and how I am doing. It's fueling the fires of self-deception and an inability to find compassion for my spouse.

Prisoners of shame in many ways can be performance addicts. We actually try and be like God and think we can do it all on our own. The cold hard truth is we will make mistakes. You must accept that you (and your spouse) will screw up sometimes, and find freedom in knowing that, accepting it, and loving each other anyway.

Don't get me wrong, if you've frequented our Recovery Library, you know there is no excuse for infidelity. My response to life and to my mate's struggles is my responsibility. Bad marriages don't make a person cheat, bad choices do. I'm not excusing addiction or infidelity and I'm certainly not suggesting the unfaithful spouse get off easy. However, if we want to find freedom, healing, and (possibly) reconciliation, we cannot allow our spouse or ourselves to be imprisoned anymore. Wounding those we love by betrayal can be shameful, but it's not what defines you. You need to accept what you've done and bring honor back to your name by now doing the right thing.

Victims of shame need authentic humility. To conquer shame, you must learn to embrace your weakness and come to a greater understanding of unconditional love.

Until we're willing to be open and free, we'll never experience the unconditional love that's waiting for us both from a loving and forgiving God as well as possibly a loving and forgiving spouse. If you need a safe place to work through shame, I'd highly suggest Hope for Healing for unfaithful spouses. You can sign up here to be notified when registration opens. Don't continue living in a fog; do the work to fully recover.

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During EMS Weekend, we won't shame the unfaithful spouse nor blame the betrayed spouse. What we will do is pair you with a small community of other couples and an expert therapist — all of whom have experienced infidelity firsthand — as well as provide comprehensive resources to help you kick-start your healing journey.

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Could this manifest itself as an unfaithful spouse deflecting their own performance-based mentality onto the betrayed? My spouse has done almost nothing to contribute to restoring the relationship, and I am accused constantly by him of forcing him into what he calls a performance-based relationship, where he can never be good enough. Meanwhile, I am not asking for perfection, but to simply see something. I don't feel I have seen remorse at this point, but rather regret in the way of what it says about him and a dislike for the consequences resulting.
What does a betrayed spouse do with this, if they see that their unfaithful is stuck in shame?

shame does not define a person

My wife often says she's not a bad person, but a person who just made a bad choice. That's a bit excusatory on the surface, but it is the truth. As hard as it is to do, a betrayed spouse has to be able to see beyond the affair, eventually. It’s just hard to disconnect the action from the person.

often the betrayed partner feels, in my experience, that the affair defines his/her spouse, but even more so...it defines marriage. The level of deceit versus the level of sacredness of the relationship play a big factor in how a betrayed mate feels it violated their marriage. That same factor...shame...distorts how we can feel about our marriage.

My wife is an incredible person. She made a mistake. I don't know if I can forgive her, and I believe it ruined our marriage...possibly forever. But I do know she is one of the best people I've ever met. She made a horrible mistake that she will always regret. But I'm glad to see her feeling better about herself and focusing on her own recovery.

Not True

She didn't make a mistake.
She made a bad choice(s).

Do not confuse the two.


It has been almost two years since d-day. Of course I suspected before that. During the months before d-day, my husband revealed to me a lie he'd maintained for 18+ years. I have since found evidence that indicates he could be considered a pathological liar. Shame a little? Reading this article opened my eyes a little more. I see that this is probably what his whole life is about. He has done well professionally, but I don't feel close to him at all. He keeps me at arm's length, and because I never know whether or not I can believe him, I do the same. He is a self proclaimed control freak also. He is not vulnerable in the slightest. He sees vulnerability as a weakness. He told me that I knew him better than anyone, and that scared him. He refuses to be counseled. Much like daughterofsarah77, I see no effort on his part to restore trust. He wants to pretend it never happened. We have problems.

Wish I had seen this sooner

For a long time, my unfaithful partner has been hiding in shame. I did not recognize it until today. Many times he would terminate further conversation by saying he was bad. I thought it was defensiveness and have operated from a place of not activating that defense. It is difficult to have a heart-to-heart when you worry about hitting a landmine. He often says that he needs my compliments, compassion or for me to be proud of him. I do not rely on him for bolstering, so I was confused by the very frequent requests. At least I am not confused anymore.

polygraph for shame

My husband, of 11 years, had a 15 month long affair with the SAME woman he cheated on his first wife with 38 years ago. They BOTH claim there was no sex this time, but the other woman just lives 3 blocks away and from the text it looks as though they were physically intimate. My husband "can't remember" anything of their 43,000 daily text, 2,000 phone conversations and 200 pictures. He has been sober 26 years and has great shame in his life from things he did years ago. He is wanting to take a polygraph to prove to me that there was no sexual contact. My question is... Would his shame sway the test or will the truth finally be told? He denies telling the other woman he loved her...she says he did. I need him to take the steps that will open him up to what he did. I'm tired of him saying it meant nothing and it was just a game they were playing. I know that's not true.

Really appreciate this

Really appreciate this teaching on shame. I can see where that has played a big part in our marriage for some time and how it has hindered us from being able to connect, heal and recover. How subtle shame can be at times, yet so destructive. I see shame now as my enemy, instead of my mate and choose to resist it, and pray for victory over it for myself ( the betrayed) and my mate!

I really love this article, I

I really love this article, I am the betrayed, but my spouse is not taking responsibility and he just lies on the couch and finds excuses for not doing anything.


I felt this was very interesting. Sent to my spouse that has has long going affair per him. No response. Though he admits remorse he is not able to provide me with the truth. I am aware of his affair for almost a year. Still spinning stories. He is unable to tell me the truth. Shame, hiding, or still I volved? I have always loved him, 25 yrs. His lack of honesty or action is telling me more of the truth than his spin, moving me towards divorce. When you can't be honest their is something else going on.


I heard that still small voice tell me how i wounded my husband and beat him into shame with unforgiveness. This article makes clear alot about his anger and depression. Thank you

Thank you for sharing. I'm getting better but a work in progress

I am the unfaithful and I have huge amounts of shame. I am doing better now and have been in therapy a year but it still haunts me and pulls me down sometimes. It is so very hard to get completely free- or it feels impossible at times. For instance, I know my husband is ashamed of me and ashamed to ever go back to our hometown since disclosure. Even I never want to go back there. He's not ashamed to be around people who don't know my past (I was promiscuous) but for people who knew me growing up- that brings us both shame to think about seeing those people. We'd rather just stay away, forever. I guess if I were healthier, the thought of going back wouldn't haunt me. Is that right?


I can appreciate this article. Its almost been one year since I learned of the affair and our separation. So much blame has been placed on me, I have decided to stop talking about it as we can't move foward. I have watched my spouse go through the "woe is me" attitude...seeking pity....while still pointing fingers. I've listened to how bad of a spouse/person I was (yet my spouse still is compelled to come around on a daily basis) After reading this article, I have seen the side of guilt and now im beginning to see the shame. My spouse has been stuck in a fog for a very long time now. The problem is, my spouse would NEVER admit or agree to even reading an article like this let alone have anyone make a suggestion about being stuck in shame. I will not share articles like this because I'm already perceived as a "judgmental" type, so I have learned to stop offering my opinions and suggestions as they are not received in a positive light. I have lost alot of respect because of the wrong choices made and the unwillingness to fully address the mistakes and any other parties that were involved. But great call out on identifying the difference between guilt and shame.


I am the betrayer,
My husband and i are committed to recovery and are working very hard at communicating and making necessary changes. The problem is our lake house. That being said i struggle greatly with shame and embarrassment not with him but the fear that the people that brought everything out in the open are publicly shaming us to friends and family. We are unfortunately in a situation that we will probably see them in our circle of friends and neighbors and are fearful that they are going to publicly embarrass us. My husband and i have agreed that we want to keep everything between us. The potential for this to happen is huge and very crippling. We have talked about worse case scenarios and questions that may happen as a result. We have come up with answers and reaction plans but we both are nervous. The other problem is the AP is a neighbor out there. So avoiding him although a priority may still happen. If anyone on this website has any advice it would be greatly appreciated.
Committed to recovery
Just me


This article explains why my over 40 year marriage with a spouse who had two affairs and then a family secret was revealed to me has not healed. I said I’m sorry and I have changed are not what fosters healsing as the betrayed. It explains it’s still all about him and that I am not the one who must take actions for healing. There’s not a once and done solution for reconciliation and healing. Your articles are so helpful and a welcome message in my inbox. I press on for what Christ has for me and my future. I appreciate this ministry and find answers to my “why” questions but today’s shame article really spoke to me. I choose to heal and not let his mistakes define me.


This article explains exactly where me and my husband are today. Thank you so much for the insight into the mind of the unfaithful

I can totally understand this

I can totally understand this article may husband had 2 affairs and he will not take responsibility for either of them. He had so much shame after the first one we could not heal then 10 years later he had another affair, now he won’t even talk to me and it’s been 4 years when I do try to communicate with him he puts the affair back on me like it’s my fault and he lies about it and says he didn’t have one, I have moved on as best as I can and learned to deal with this on my own , it’s been tough I wish he could just fess up and talk to me and take responsibility. It’s sad because we were married for 30 years, guilt and shame got the best of him.

Performance addict

So much of this article spoke to me and describes the core of my frustrations. My partner appears to be trying to make things right now, but at the core he remains self-absorbed and can't focus on my needs to recover. He does extraordinary over the top things that appear loving on the face, but when I tell him what I need (which is much more understated), he puts no effort in. He seems focused on things that "look" loving, rather than the nuts and bolts of healing that may very well go unoticed and certainly aren't going to get the accolades he seems to be focused on. Even during his four years of multiple affairs he continued to do showy things to express his affection, all the while cheating daily with multiple women. His focus even now seems to be on the appearance of love rather than the real love shown through actually listening to what I need to heal. In the end I feel he didn't see me during the affairs, and he still doesn't now. He was and still is focused on his own appearence. He is still just as self-absorbed now as he was during his affairs, and my feelings and needs didn't matter then, and they don't matter now. Self-absorbed performance addict, plain and simple... there is no healing in this for me, because he's still taking care of his own needs through performances.

It's always easier to do the

It's always easier to do the things we're comfortable with (fixing things, chores) rather than the uncomfortable things our spouse needs from us (emotional connection, vulnerability). A good therapist helps.❤

Can you explain again how one

Can you explain again how one is self-centered and the other not? Or can you tell me which video (i’ve Already watched) explains this?

I believe the difference is

I believe the difference is self-centered shame (the adulterer) vs. ascribed shame, the shame the betrayed takes on. Both are mentioned in both videos.

Resonates with our situation

Explains a lot. During our 20+ year marriage something always felt "off". In 2012 I accidentally uncovered the affair that was on again, off again during the entire marriage. He had used the same woman to cheat on his previous wife and continued their "friendship" throughout our marriage. Once I discovered it, his behavior was all about him, selfish, defensive and unapologetic. Information came on a need to know basis for many years while I did all the work to try and fix things. I did feel the anger and rage explained here. His defensiveness has never really subsided, until recently. But that is only because the AP passed away. And I must say that as awful as it may sound, it brought me some peace. Until he started seeing someone new. And here we go. The progress made was set back and he didn't understand why it was an issue. My attempts at doing things that made me feel good about myself were seen as a 'what's good for the goose' type of attitude. I knew he had deep childhood baggage and recently started realizing our time left on this earth is not enough time for me to help him.

I'm glad I continue receiving these messages as they have provided much needed guidance, enlightenment and peace of mind. I only wished I could have discovered this site sooner. Thank you Rick and Stephanie for sharing your experiences and helping so many fractured lives. May we all find the inner peace we seek.


This series has helped me more than anything I have read or therapy sessions I’ve been in. It sheds so much light on my husbands affair but also his personality. It makes me realize that HIS issues are HIS issues. It wasn’t that I’m not enough ... This is so freeing. I have asked him to read this series and whether or not he does... I can release him and move on in my own healing. I’ve asked for 3 years for us to attend an EMS weekend but he replies with”that’s not the kind of therapy we need”. Praying he will read the series and see TRUTH. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

This is my husband

Dear Rick
So spot on. My husband was a victim, so self centered, hiding in his secrets, his shame.
I was limping along waiting til our youngest left home.
For me to remain in the marriage, I requested that he attend a weekly men's group with CSAT therapist,
attend 3 SAA meetings a week,
get a sponsor.
This is when the change happened.
He shows empathy. He is not defensive. He is a real human being.
And I finally stopped focusing on my husband, and focused on my recovery. In Harboring Hope.

What’s the betrayed to do with all his anger and shame

I am betrayed, 2 months into the second dday - he has relapse after first (4 months ago) Now he’s done with affair but shame? Is making him crawl under a rock and is resisting recovery work because he is tired or it all and says sometimes he’d rather just be alone. He says not with affair partner, but Either with me or alone. But mostly alone because I am a constant reminder of what he did. He loves our kids and I have tried to pull back on my emotional reactions to reduce his level of reaction(not exactly fair given the level of lain and flooding) but he is using anger to control the situation. If I get too close to his pain he lashes out at me (which hurts deeply but i keep my composure) . What’s a betrayed spouse to do through all of this. I shouldn’t really make accommodations for his behavior but also am trying to stay patient while he works through his process and gets to a better place

What’s the betrayed to do with all his anger and shame

I am betrayed, 2 months into the second dday - he has relapse after first (4 months ago) Now he’s done with affair but shame? Is making him crawl under a rock and is resisting recovery work because he is tired or it all and says sometimes he’d rather just be alone. He says not with affair partner, but Either with me or alone. But mostly alone because I am a constant reminder of what he did. He loves our kids and I have tried to pull back on my emotional reactions to reduce his level of reaction(not exactly fair given the level of lain and flooding) but he is using anger to control the situation. If I get too close to his pain he lashes out at me (which hurts deeply but i keep my composure) . What’s a betrayed spouse to do through all of this. I shouldn’t really make accommodations for his behavior but also am trying to stay patient while he works through his process and gets to a better place


I don’t think my wife is capable of shame,,she seems very happy to have put me through this misery,in her eyes although I have researched so much and found us both equally guilty,,,I am responsible for this break up,for her loss of love,and subsequent 8 month affair,,she told me she “Has done all her crying” since her AP limerent other dumped her 14 months ago she has turned her obsession to a friendship With a male friend,spending every minute she can with him and or his associates,,their lives and dramas,,says I’m too old for her,as she has regressed to her late teens early twenties behaviours,,,
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OOOh, I get it. This article is very, very helpful. This describes my unfaithful husband, and helps me understand him.
I have been resentful that he has stayed in denial, refused to start recovery, and totally discounts my feelings.
Sometimes I have compassion for the tremendous shame and pain he must feel. I can only imagine the extreme effort required to keep up his wall of perfection. The word 'pious" also fits my husband. I am tired of playing this game and exhibiting a false image, but I don't know how to move out of it.

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