Over the last 10 years, I have had so many D-Days I’ve lost count. This has caused a lot of additional issues for me. When we found AR last month, we went through boot camp together. During day 5 of the material, I asked a reasonable question and he flooded. He did not answer my question and gave me painful details that I did not want instead. I tried 2 more times and something similar happened. I stopped asking questions and decided I didn't want to know anything else. I know that is both wrong and unproductive but I need to protect myself from further trauma right now. He says he is going to get help. I’m not 100% sure he will but I am 100% sure that I will get at least 1 more disclosure. The knowledge of this is causing so much anxiety. How do I deal with this? Not knowing, not wanting to know but also knowing it’s both necessary and its coming.